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aquaPlace3807
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Im I valid enough
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by aquaPlace3807
Last post
 December 27th, 2025
...See more Hey so im just trying to make sure if im actually valid as a guy because of somethings so I stay at my Grandmas right and she said she cant call me a guy/male name/he/him because she says she knew me as a kid and I never told her I wanted to be a boy as a kid  she said she believes some people are truly trans if they were a kid who did typically “opposite gender” things as kids  but for me she said she doesnt believe as me a guy and also because “im too mentally ill to make that decision” and said she would only believe me if I had physical proof (like I have to be intersex for her to believe me) I remember playing with all kinds of toys including mine and my brothers I dont think I cared what gender the toy was supposed to be for also when I was younger in a game I was playing a villain kidnapped us and was going to change or gender as a punishment or something and I was thinking “lol that doesnt sound like a punishment”  when I was a kid I remember trying to be a girl but never truly felt like one it felt like I was faking it but didnt know why but I tried being one also I thought anyone Afab didnt actually want to be a girl but it was tolerable enough deal with it but as I got older it was worse and worse  I think the things that caused me to realize was when my dad forced me to dress femininely in public and wear makeup which caused me to feel absolutely disgusted by myself and my body more than I ever did before also I had an online friend come out as a trans woman somewhat recently after that so I think I kinda started to question after that (also I liked when people online called me he/him lol) After that I started starting feeling like the gender identity go away from the feminine ones to neutral (only because I thought I couldnt be a dude because of how unmasculine and weak I felt like I was which I still feel ashamed about especially now that I know I actually am one) and now to masculine  it just upsets me that barely anyone I know seems to believe me and I regret not saying it when I was younger even though I didnt fully understand it enough then to realize I was gender dysphoric (maybe im just stupid because some kids realize it even when theyre young)
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Trouble with accepting myself
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by aquaPlace3807
Last post
 December 15th, 2025
...See more Hey im new on here  So this might sound stupid but I feel like I have trouble accepting myself because of my family not really being accepting (some people are accepting but not all) Im happy for Lgbtq+ people who can be proud of being themselves but I cant relate because everyday I always wish I was a cisgender guy and I feel robbed because I cant be I stay at my grandmas house and she refuses to call me he/him and calls me the name I dont want to be called because she likes that name  also I used to think/say I was Non-Binary and any pronouns to make it easier for my family since I didnt want to be a girl and didnt want to have to come out to anyone but that didnt work out  I also feel like I act not masculine enough sometimes which makes me feel like im not allowed to be a guy and I know someones masculinity/femininity doesnt exactly have to describe their gender but I get worried im an exception for some reason (maybe its because I try to pretend im cisgender to cope Idk) Idk man im just upset sorry if I sound pathetic rn  hopefully all you people here had a better day than me lol
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