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Relationship Stress / by bigducksadheart11
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 March 4th
...See more Hi guys, I’m really grateful I can share this and hopefully receive some support. I’m 16 and I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety, and I feel sad almost all the time. I genuinely don’t know how to fix myself or how to feel stable on my own. I was in a relationship for two years with a boy who helped me so much with my anxiety. Being with him made everything feel lighter, and I was basically off my medication because I felt calm and secure around him. I was still a sad person deep down, but it wasn’t overwhelming the way it used to be. A few months ago we broke up, and it completely shattered me. He chose to keep other girls in his life in ways that felt disloyal to me. I don’t like putting harsh labels on it, but it felt like micro cheating and secrecy, like there were always other girls in the picture even if it wasn’t fully romantic. I gave him an ultimatum because I couldn’t keep accepting behavior that hurt me, and he chose to leave. He tried in some ways, which makes it even more confusing, but I still hold resentment and blame him for how everything unfolded. At the same time, I blame myself for relying on him so heavily for my happiness and emotional stability. It has been two months and he is still all I think about. I don’t reach out, even though he contacts me often, because I know I need to respect my standards and protect myself. Still, my heart aches constantly. I cry all the time, I feel physically sick from the stress, my anxiety’s also gotten so worse that I can’t sleep without thinking something bad will happen, I don’t think it clashes with him but it’s definitely gotten worse, I haven’t slept in days. I miss the sweet version of him that I fell in love with. I keep questioning whether I made the right decision. Did I lose someone who truly loved me over something that could have been fixed, or did I finally choose myself for once? I feel ashamed for allowing him to do certain things to me and for trusting him so completely. I never wanted us to end, especially not like this. I feel lost, broken, and unsure of how to rebuild myself without him, and I just want to know how to heal and become okay on my own.
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