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My really bad choice I made in early recovery
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 May 2nd, 2024
...See more I messed up. I am eight months in recovery. I was homeless and on fentynal and meth for 5 years. Stealing to support my habbits. Anyways. I went to detox and in patient and my in patient was coed. There was a girl I was attracted to there and instead of trying to hook up with her at treatment I knew that was a bad idea and set alot of healthy boundaries with her and let her know I was not there for that. She is a meth and sex addict that's like the last thing I needed at that point in my life. So I graduate my in patient and get into a clean and sober house. My stupid *** maintained contact with her. So I get a job that I love and am good at and have been promoted in. I got a car. Paying my rent and saving money to move into my own place n September. I'm doing great and I'm feeling on top of the world about it. Going to 12 step meetings that I really don't like because it's part of my sober house but whatever. 10 house mates I don't connect with so I just go to work and come home and mind my business 😌. So thr entire time I have been in this sober house I have been talking to this girl intimately the entire time. She is 50 miles away. So like 2 weeks ago I decide I'm going to go get a room for the weekend and visit this girl. We hang out and hook up. I get back home and we face time the first night I'm back. The next few days she will only text and the next day she ghosts me saying she is sorry for neglecting our friendship she is dealing with her program stuff and completely ghosts me. She just leaves my messages on read so I quit texting her and there's like no communication at all at this point. It triggers my depression. And this sucks at this point because now I have nobody to talk to. And it's very stressful for me and I was not ready for this kind of stress. I miss her and feel hurt and betrayed and like i know it's not a big deal but I also know I was not ready for this level of rejection and the emotions it's putting me through this early in my recovery. I usually just get high and it's not an option anymore. So idk sucks for me I made my bed and I knew better from the start. I just did not anticipate this when I should have. Sucks. I don't have anyone else to talk to about this so I'm on here so any feedback would be nice. 
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