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blueLemon3704
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Good days bad days. Trying as best I can in life. Help when I can , heal when I can . Open to be contacted if any help needed or someone to listen . Look after yourself .

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Relationship Stress / by blueLemon3704
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 November 5th, 2025
...See more Hi all I want to create a thread where you say what you wanted to say to them if you could. I find it helps release some of the hurt . I hope it helps. Here's mine “What You Left Behind” You broke something in me that I can’t seem to fix. I keep telling myself I’ll move on, that time will dull it, that the pain will fade — but it doesn’t. It’s like a dull throb that never stops, even when I smile, even when I pretend. You touched something deep in me — something I didn’t even know existed. I opened up, I let you see everything, all the messy parts I hide from everyone else. I trusted you. I believed we were something rare. And then you left. Since then, I haven’t been the same. I walk through life like a ghost, performing what’s expected — but none of it feels like me. I keep giving pieces of myself away just to hold things together, but there’s almost nothing left. I feel hollow. I don’t even know if I miss you anymore or just the person I was when I was with you — the person who believed in love again. Who felt seen. Who didn’t feel like a burden or a disappointment. You made me believe I could be loved for who I am, and then you proved me wrong. Now I’m trapped between two lives — one I can’t go back to, and one I can’t fully live. Sometimes I wish you’d just said I wasn’t enough. At least then I’d have a reason. But instead, you left me with questions that tear at me every day: Did you ever really care? Was it ever real? How could something that felt so right leave me feeling so completely worthless? You broke me, and I don’t know how to put myself back together. I keep trying to be strong, but I’m so tired, so tired of hurting, of pretending. And if I’m honest — I still love you. Even after everything, I still love you, and that’s the part that hurts the most.
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Self-Esteem / by blueLemon3704
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 November 5th, 2025
...See more I saw this and want to put it out there. Even broken glass catches the light . Wishing you all healthy happy minds in the struggle that is life.
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Self-Esteem / by blueLemon3704
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 September 24th, 2025
...See more I'm in my 40s this year by all accounts objectively I should be content. I have a family ( wife and kids thou unhappily married - I'm old school so can't ever feel I can cope with a divorce and the emotional upheaval and cultural stigmata so in it for the kids) . I have a well paid job in high stress ( particular emotional) role as a doctor. I am just done... But more so than that I always felt unworthy not good enough for anything or anyone. I feel guilty for feeling guilty even if that makes sense especially when I have it so good objectively. I have had therapy and I know part of it is trying to live an authentic life but so much stops that happening. I would happily go to sleep and bnevr wake up tbh . What can I do?
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