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bluelilyseed
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PathStep 14 Compassion hearts81 Forum posts23 Forum upvotes43 Current upvotes43 Age GroupAdult Last activeMay, 2026 Member sinceJuly 22, 2025
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casually sipping words and spitting thoughts

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Self-Harm Recovery / by bluelilyseed
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 July 30th, 2025
...See more Im here tho write a simple message of celebration - im clean for almost three years. Despite all of the challenges life has waved upon me I haven’t had a single thought of hurting myself again.
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Nervousness
General Support / by bluelilyseed
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 July 28th, 2025
...See more hi everyone. i’d like to share my deal of “anxious excitement”. i have a recruitment talk tomorrow regarding the internship program i’ve applied to. and i’m *** nervous about it to he honest. the equivocal part is that i’m pretty confident about my knowledge as well as theoretical skills, yet i can’t help but feel wary and await it twitchily.
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important!
Mindfulness Center / by bluelilyseed
Last post
 July 30th, 2025
...See more don’t forget to tell the people you love that you love them. just a message, a call or a casual talk in the kitchen:)
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how are you?
Depression Support / by bluelilyseed
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 July 25th, 2025
...See more hi everyone. i just want to ask how are y’all doing. feel free to write whatever crosses your mind. wishing you a marvellous day😌
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internship
Anxiety Support / by bluelilyseed
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 July 23rd, 2025
...See more i’m am currently experiencing a severe anxiety regarding my internship. what if i won’t make it? what if i sick at my time management? what if it won’t work as i planned? i can’t keep fidgeting inside about the future, especially when it’s so near and no control of mine can assist it. it’s scary.
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Sensitive narcissism
Personality Disorders Support / by bluelilyseed
Last post
 July 25th, 2025
...See more Hi everyone. i’d just like to share my story, perhaps someone will find it helpful and familiar. there is one thing that’s been bothering me for a very long time, the so-called flaw in the idealized picture, namely - sensitive narcissism (at least I think this is it).I have a morbidly high self-esteem, yet alongside with this I consider myself an average person and i constantly compare myself to others, envying their smallest success. I am also fearful, having been chased by social phobia for a long time. I couldn't even say „good morning” in a store. stuttering is also a tremendously crucial point in the whole story, which until recently had been simply devastating, intensifying the very social phobia and fear; a so called sansara. I still bear the opinion that I am worse, useless and defective, although I try to hide it with great effort. additionally, I am permanently convinced that I can be seriously ill, and that is why I cannot „fix” myself. I have animosity towards people, especially those who, to my mind, have achieved more; I dream of them falling down into calamity and irrevocable poverty. I had two suicide attempts and an unhealthy tendency to self-harm, but it has remained in the past. After all, the love for my family and friends remains as intense- i always express love in both words and deeds - they are such a „safe space” to me, free from all others - jealous, selfish, pushy and stupid. At certain points, my head is flooded with thoughts of the total destruction of all the people in the world, because only then will I feel better, more valuable and most of all - calm again.
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