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cactoOsjoOs
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LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by cactoOsjoOs
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 April 3rd, 2021
...See more hi! I'm Momo, 16, I've been identifying as biromantic Asexual for the last 2 years, but recently I'm starting to question this but honestly I'm unclear. For context, I usually remember things in a 5second loop, kind of like a gif, sometimes with sound sometimes not, and usually I can freeze frame the memory/creation thingy and zoom out of first person into 3rd. Anyways- a couple months ago I got this new one out of nowhere where someone I know (for shortening purposes I'll refer to him as B) chokes me against a wall and then I twist us around so my arms against his shoulders and he's on the wall. This wasn't too bad, and I am a standardly aggressive person so it wasn't too out of the ordinary either. But then a couple weeks ago I got one where I'm on top of him doing something to his neck, it's 3 seconds long so I don't know what I'm doing in it but I'm 97% sure whatever it is is giving him pleasure but also wtf- why is my brain doing this pleaaaaaseeeee, I want to be B's friend but now it's difficult to have face to face convos with him without seeing those "GIFs" and tis mortifying. Idk this has just never happened, with anyone, and idk how to feel about it ;-;
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