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chaosworld247
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PathStep 4 Compassion hearts117 Forum posts21 Forum upvotes56 Current upvotes56 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2026 Member sinceAugust 26, 2026
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DID system! May or may not mention that

Trans man. I'm 18. I use he/him. Call me Vyan

I used 7 cups when it was in its infancy and first started. I came back recently because life is overwhelming.

I ramble a lot. My messages tend to be very lengthy. Even so, thank you to anyone who's listened to my ramblings <3

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my listener went on break and I'm anxious over ot
General Support / by chaosworld247
Last post
 October 22nd
...See more So I had gotten really really close with this one listener and I've been spacey lately and she went on break and I didn't get to see the last message she sent to me. I think I expected it but not being able to read her last message bothers me. And I had told her so much. I understand that breaks are needed and everything. I just hope when she comes back that I'll be able to access our chat again. And now I wanna find another listener I can message repeatedly. But that's really hard to do sometimes. I'm just. There's a lot going on in my life right now. Gender related stuff mainly, I'm a trans man. And just life in general. I feel anxious that my listener went on break. It makes me nervous. I understand but I'm anxious over it. I don't want it to be my fault- but I know that's my own feat of abandonment talking.
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I CAME OUT TO MY SUBSTITUTE TEACHER AND I NEED TO SHARE ABOUT IT
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by chaosworld247
Last post
 October 10th
...See more Okay so my actual english teacher hasn't been there for the three months we've been in school this year so far? She came back recently but is still in and out. She has health complications But we had this temporary sub, Mr dennis. And like. He's a 50 year old man, who lacks an english degree like assigned 13 chapters in one night what the *** and he's hard of hearing We had to hand in this one paper. He said "thank you ma'am" and I dunno something on my expression and he noticed and immediately like whisper asked what my pronouns were- But mother *** couldn't hear me say he/him because he's hard of hearing and I'm soft spoken and we were already whispering and he always let's the class out early for lunch and I said I was waiting till everyone left- Then when everyone left I said it and he talked about how he has trans friends and family and like he was asking about how lgbtq people are treated on campus like what the actual issues are. And he said some *** like "what I learned is that coming out doesn't affect anyone except you. It doesn't affect me" and he said "being you is the most important thing you can do" and he also said a "little tolerance goes a long way" And this was all during a conversation about how people can be stupid and really cruel to people who are different in anyway. Afterwards I kinda gave him a hug and walked out. I was smiling a *** ton though. Andddd that night I proceeded to cut my hair off at 12:00am! I just can't believe someone noticed someone *** noticed. Someone noticed and I finally finally *** told someone I'm a boy- someone in real life- He waved at me in the hallway even when I didn't have him in class. He still waved at me I've been struggling a lot with my gender recently- I'm a trans man- but the only transitioning I've done is like asking people to call me vyan but that's only people at school But the idea of having to live as woman makes my skin crawl. I can't do it. I just can't. I could dissociate and ignor it for years but I'm 18 now and have to get my license have to go to college have to get a job And just the thought of being perceived as a woman every day for the rest of my life- I can't do it. I can't. I spent years pretending. I realized I was trans when I was 11 and finally really really realized when I was 13 and got mistaken as a boy in public for the first time- But Mr dennis noticed how I looked when he called me ma'am. And I've already been struggling so much- I wanna be a boy to the people around me. I don't want to have to ask for it. I'm a boy. I'm a boy my name is Vyan. I wanna come out to my mom I just don't know how. I worry because we're so close- I don't wanna mess up our closeness- But I wanna live. And for some reason as terrifying as it is, I just wanna feel alive. Being seen as a boy makes me wanna live, it makes me feel like I'm an actual freaking person. I just need to find my voice enough to say it. And Mr dennis probably gave me that Little push I needed. I cut my hair that night. I think I wanna change my profile picture.
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can't message a listener?
Site Updates / by chaosworld247
Last post
 September 27th
...See more So I've been using this app consistently for awhile now and I log onto today or tonight and everytime I click on my listeners chat it comes back with a something went wrong. message and I don't know? It let me update my password but for some reason I can't talk with any listeners at all I can't open the chat
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how do I come out as trans
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by chaosworld247
Last post
 September 22nd
...See more Has anyone every come out as trans to their parents or anything-? Their family-? I'm a trans man- and being viewed as a girl feels painful at this point in my life- I wanna say it but I don't know how- at the very least I wanna ask her to call me my name-
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feeling gross after consumption
Eating Disorder Support / by chaosworld247
Last post
 September 10th
...See more I've been trying to get better recently- or snap out of my head I guess. And I just wanted to ask how many other people feel physically gross when they eat? Sure I'm paranoid about food and there's alor of anxiety and stuff mixed up in there. But whenever I eat, afterwards I feel disgusting. Like, I can feel the food in my stomach and feel my organs moving as they digest That's what gets me, feeling my organs move and being hyperaware of what they're doing after I eat- the process of physically feeling my food digest- it's literally makes me feel gross and lethargic for a few hours I was just wondering if anyone else has experience with this. Feeling gross after eating in the sense you can literally feel your organs moving as they do the normal digestive process. Does anyone else know what I'm talking about?
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