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...See more My boyfriend and I have lovingly been together for 10 months. But back in October of this year, I saw a notification pop up on his phone that said his onlyfans subscription was expiring. I was devasted and just started bawling. He got the onlyfans because a friend told him about it and he claims to have never gone on it prior to the first time he did and hasn't masturbated to it. Later that night, I stupidly went through his phone and saw pictures of other girls on there. I woke him up and again started crying. He and I have been over this issue numerous times since then and I can't find myself to get over it. He tells me it was random horniness and he didn't mean to hurt me. He also says some manipulative stuff that leaves me wanting to stop talking about it. He's really tired of having this conversation because I get mad when I remember it and then when he asks, "What's wrong?" I tell him because of the incident. It's taking a toll on our relationship and all I want is to move on but i can't get over the fact that he saved these pictures and kept them next to mine. What bothers me more is knowing that he had my nudes, repeatedly told me he didn't need an onlyfans because he had me, and he said he doesn't masturbate to other girls. All of it hurts and I need some advice on how to heal and gain some self respect back. I know some people may say to break up but I love him way too much to succumb to that. It's physically impossible for me to say that as well. I really love him and we haven't had any other issues besides this.

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