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...See more I’m reaching out because I’m feeling overwhelmed by everything happening in my life, especially with my family. It feels like no matter what I do, nothing is ever good enough. I’m constantly under pressure, and it seems like my efforts go unnoticed and unappreciated. One of the biggest sources of frustration for me is the expectation that I should take over the shop because my parents hired incompetent workers. They rely on me to make things work, yet they won’t even pay me for the time and effort I put in. Instead of recognizing the hard work I do, they just tell me that I’m useless and worthless. They tell everyone that I’m no good, that I’ll never amount to anything, and that I’m just a burden to them. This has been eating at me for a long time. They paint a picture of me that others believe, and it hurts when people tell me I’m not like that—when they tell me I’m capable, but it feels like my family doesn’t see that. They don’t appreciate what I do, and all they ever focus on is how I’m not living up to their expectations. I’m told that I’ll never be anything, that I’ll never make it, and that everything bad that has happened to me is deserved, as my brother so harshly said. It’s crushing. Every time I try to speak up or explain myself, it feels like they don’t listen, like I’m just a problem that needs to be fixed. The pressure to be perfect, to succeed, and to carry everyone’s weight on my shoulders is too much. They don’t understand the toll it’s taking on me. They just expect me to do everything, without acknowledging how hard it is or how much I’ve sacrificed. I’m stuck feeling like I’m constantly failing, and no matter how hard I try, it’s never enough. On top of everything, they expect me to manage everything in life, without giving me the time or space to actually handle it. They don’t see how much I’m struggling to keep everything afloat. The pressure is suffocating, and I’m falling behind in every aspect of my life. It’s hard to keep going when everything feels like it’s crumbling and when I don’t feel like I have the support I need to get through it. I’ve tried to step back, to find some space to breathe, but the judgment and the weight of these expectations just keep piling on. I can’t take it anymore. I’m frustrated, lost, and feeling like I don’t know how much longer I can keep pretending that everything’s okay when it really isn’t. I just feel tired, maybe they were right, I'm not who my friends think I am, I'm not a good person, I'm not a helpful person and I'm just destined to hurt everyone who'll ever get close to me. I mean after all who wouldn't feel like that? I've had my older brother tell me he'd beat the living *** out of me for what I did and that I deserve all the bad things that'll come my way alongside all the things that have. I'm just done at this point So please, if I'm wrong, tell me I'm wrong, don't hold back, I've had enough of the lies

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