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considerateFan5574
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PathStep 2 Compassion hearts164 Forum posts25 Forum upvotes127 Current upvotes127 Age GroupAdult Last activeMay, 2025 Member sinceJanuary 11, 2025
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I'm here to share my experiences, complexities of my thoughts, and to help others become aware that they are always enough.

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Depression Support / by considerateFan5574
Last post
 May 18th, 2025
...See more It's hard for me to say this, but I need a friend. I'm 21 and had a traumatic childhood, something I only realized much later. It all started when I was 9. My entire school life was filled with abuse, insults, bullying, neglect, and loneliness. My mind got completely wired by these experiences, leading to low self-esteem and emotional trauma. I never really knew what it felt like to be safe. I still don't. I grew up in an environment where my feelings and emotions never seemed to matter. My family isn’t the kind of people who sit down and truly listen. On top of that, I have a disability that I’m working on. I don’t know how to expect friendship when I carry so much vulnerability and insecurity. But one thing I know for sure is that I’ve always been genuine and trustworthy. If you’re someone who’s also dealing with mental health challenges and looking for a supportive friend to share anything with without fear of judgment, I’m here. I’d love to see your comments.
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Emotional trauma
Depression Support / by considerateFan5574
Last post
 April 25th, 2025
...See more I’ve made many posts on this app before, but I never really knew what I wanted to express. So this one is going to describe what I’m currently feeling. I’ve always lived a challenging life even though I’m just 21, it feels like life has been hard from the start. I was bullied, insulted, and physically abused throughout my school years. I know this happens to a lot of quiet kids, but the pain it left behind really affected me. It shattered my self-esteem. On top of that, I’m half-disabled because of a spine disorder. I can walk, but there are limitations I can’t sit or stand for more than 20 minutes at a time. Because of this, I rarely go out. I’m constantly afraid of how people might treat me, so I isolate myself just to avoid more mental stress. What hurts the most is that I never received emotional support. My family has never truly understood my condition. They’re good people, but they lack the ability to really get me. When I tell them about my back pain, they just listen in silence, knowing they can’t help. Even though I’ve made a lot of progress through exercises and I do believe I can heal physically one day, it doesn’t excite me much because what I’ve always longed for is emotional connection and support. I'm crying since yesterday silently, hiding myself. I’ve used several apps to try and find people to connect with, but now I feel like unless you're either extremely good looking or naturally talkative, making friends is almost impossible. Maybe I’m wrong, but I still feel deeply hurt physically and emotionally. My waist hurts, and so does my heart.
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I don't know what love feels like
7 Cups Online Therapy / by considerateFan5574
Last post
 March 28th, 2025
...See more I think I can say that my life has been hard. I was bullied for being fat until I was 13. At school, I was made fun of for being an underconfident kid who struggled to get good marks. I was insulted and hit by almost every teacher. Then, I was diagnosed with a disability, and suddenly, I was completely left alone. Everyone left me because I wasn’t like them. Now I’m 21. School is over, but I’m still in isolation, collecting memories from the past that have deeply impacted my self-image. I started reading books on subjects I feel are important for me, but there’s one thing I still don’t understand. I never knew what emotional support really is because I’ve always lived alone. My family isn’t very extroverted, so it’s hard for them to understand. The last time I had a friend was six years ago. But even then, it never made sense for me to share my thoughts because I was always the black sheep sharp and philosophical. I’m still working on myself. But I still don’t know whom I should share my thoughts with. My eyes get teary, and I feel pain in my nerves when I think about having someone who truly accepts me. I don’t know exactly what I want, but I do know that I don’t deserve to be left alone when I did nothing wrong. I don't hate myself infact i pamper myself like a baby. But i think everyone still need someone.
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This happens in a loop
Depression Support / by considerateFan5574
Last post
 January 21st, 2025
...See more Right now, I’m struggling to be productive. I want to learn a high-value skill to earn money. I’m 21 and want to create a better life for myself and my family. I’ve always had a passion for marketing and psychology, but at the moment, I don’t feel like working. I feel empty and constantly find myself seeking short-term pleasures like *** reels. It’s easy for me to break out of such habits, but even then, I still don’t feel motivated to work on my career. My life would be so much more interesting if I followed through with the plans I’ve made for the next few months. I’ve identified my issue through a book, which contains everything I need to overcome low self-esteem using CBT exercises. However, I still struggle to get up and read even a few pages each day.
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New here
Newbie Hub / by considerateFan5574
Last post
 January 30th, 2025
...See more Hey there I'm new here. I hope I can be seen here.
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No friends
Newbie Hub / by considerateFan5574
Last post
 January 20th, 2025
...See more I have been living without a friend ever since I completed school. I’ve never found a compatible friend in my life. Social anxiety and my disability have kept me from going out. I’m 21 now, and I’m still following the same pattern. I’ve tried *** groups and *** to find someone to talk to, but it never worked out. I’m not sure if I’m being too needy by wanting a friend, or if there’s something I need to change to be noticed. Maybe there’s a place I haven’t found yet where someone like me exists.
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IIt’s been too long since I had a friend.
General Support / by considerateFan5574
Last post
 February 26th, 2025
...See more I don’t know exactly what this feeling is, but I’ll share a little bit about my past. I’ve always had social anxiety and struggled in school to make friends. I was insulted and bullied by many. I always tried to escape from social gatherings to feel safe. Things got worse when I was diagnosed with scoliosis. I lost the few friends I had because I wasn’t cool to them anymore. I’m 21 now, and all of this has significantly impacted the way I see myself. I started seeing positive changes when I tried to fix this through journaling. But right now, I feel clueless about what exactly this new feeling is. I want a friend, but I always end up being too good to others, only to be replaced by someone else. It feels like I’ve never truly discovered my social identity.
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