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...See more My father is a very angry,hurt and abusive man. When I lived with my parents my father would lose his temper so quickly,it was like a flip switch. My dad yelled at everyone,broke things in the house and put fear in everyone. My father is abusive,at that time he abused my brother,my mother and I. I remember my dad yelled at my mother and often got physical with her. He abused my brother by punching him, slapping him, mentally hurting him, through him around his room,kicked him out the house many times and was just cruel towards him. I remember the abuse I endured from my father. He mentally and verbally abused me and he was very controlling over me. My father was also physical with me. I was bullied in school once and I retaliated aggressively towards the bullies,my mind blanked out,I had to write my statement and when my father saw I wrote I blanked out,he back handed me in front of the school and people saw. My mother told me when I was a baby, I got into the Vasiline, it was everywhere,my dad lost it and smacked my little hands so hard the were so swollen that I was screaming from the pain. My father put me in a head lock in public because I wondered away from my mom. He put me on a head lock and put me to the floor because I wasn't happy at school and said to him I'm not feeling motivated anymore and when he put me in this headlock he said to me,"there is your motivation,do your school work or I'll make this look like a walk in the park." I felt like he just didn't card that I wasn't happy, that I was depressed. I remember I was in grade 3 and my dad was tickling me,and I can get very loud and I screech,my mom got irritated and told my father to stop. So my father told me not to screech,he proceeded to tickle me again and I couldn't help it and screeched again, he put his hand over my nose and mouth, making it tight where I couldn't breathe and in such a panic,he said to me,"your mother told you to shut up,so shut up!" My mother shouted at him,"stop it,you are going to kill her!" He then let go and kicked me away and told me to go to my room. He held my mouth and nose closed so tight that my tooth stabbed my lip and was bleeding. I had a friend over and my friend knew I came off the medication I was on for Endometriosis,but she didn't know my dad didn't know and it slipped,my dad opened the gate and told me to leave and I'm not his daughter because I keep things from him,so I walked. He didn't come look for me,my mom and my friend went behind his back to come fetch me and my friend said that I can stay by her. I left home because I couldn't stand the abuse and my father came by my friend's house,and tried to get me home and j didn't want to. He said my friend's mother was attacking him so he picked me up and tried to get me out of that house against my own will and since then I didn't want contact with him. Fast forward to this year,it's been almost 3 years since I've seen my parents,I decided to rock up my parent's house with my fiance so we could talk. My father is worse,he is a lot more mentally unstable. He denies everything he did to me and is accusing me of bazaar things like I had people spy on him, calling me a narcissist and said that I'm a manipulator, saying I gaslighted him. I'm now pregnant,living with my fiance and my dad asks,"what will my answer be if he came and fetched me?" Then I asked him if he meant me and my fiance and he didn't seem keen on my fiance. I said to him in not sure. It just feels like he wants me back to control me again and split my fiance and I up. I have been struggling with PTSD, anxiety and depression from this abuse and seeing my dad again made it worse. In suffering and can't get professional help. I just wish my dad could fall of the face of the earth

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