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...See more Hmm… I want to share the main problem I’ve been suffering from. Two or three years ago, I started writing books on an online platform. I did it for fun and was really happy with it. But one day, everything was ruined. I found a book that was very similar to mine, so I told my close friend about it. She gathered two or three others and went to talk to the person we suspected of copying my book—I’ll call her C from now on. C swore she didn’t copy and claimed it was her own idea. However, she admitted that she had read my book before. So, I thought that if she had read mine, she should have known that writing something similar would be considered copying. But she didn’t seem to care and wrote it anyway. When we politely questioned her, she started crying, saying she couldn’t focus on her studies anymore because of this. She cried while telling us she had an exam the next day, and so on. After all that, I forgave her and even apologized on my message board, telling her to continue writing. But even after that, she started bad-mouthing us in the description of another book. Later, I found out that she had shared this incident on another platform where she had more followers than me. She kept telling people that we had scolded her using N-words, but as far as I know, neither my friend nor I ever did anything like that. A few days later, she left a secret message asking me to help promote her book to my readers. I didn’t do it because I felt like—why should I, after everything she had done? So, I ignored the message and moved on. After a few more days, I received another secret message: *"Do you know how ugly your stories are? No matter how much you write, we don’t even want to see them."* It was really heartbreaking for me. I didn’t know who sent it, but I felt like it was her. After that, I started receiving continuous hate messages. One of them said, *"That artist’s fans are toxic."* She was referring to an artist I deeply respected and stanned. To her, he seemed overrated, and she believed I shouldn’t be a fan of him. I really loved him, so hearing that made me feel bad. Another message said, *"That story doesn’t have any emotions."* I went through all of that and kept writing without stopping—until the worst day came. It happened a year after the copying incident. Someone came to my book and kept leaving hateful comments. I ignored them at first, but then one message really hit me: *"This story is so dumb. It’s really, really ugly. Why doesn’t that character understand he cheated on her? This is the first story of yours I started reading, but I got bored from the very first one. Don’t write these dumb stories."* It hurt me so much that I stopped writing. I couldn’t bear it anymore. Now, my biggest problem is that I still feel afraid to write again. I keep thinking—what if they hurt me again? I keep remembering everything, and sometimes I end up crying because of it. I hope I can get better soon.

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