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I don’t get to be myself anymore
Student Support / by courteousSquare3675
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 January 31st, 2025
...See more Hi! I’m a bit scared since this is my first post. I tried venting on Reddit before but was met with downvotes so I’m just turning here to try a new option. I grew up in England and I had everything. I found the education system really suited towards me and teachers really cared about my mental health. I was always top of my class and barely had to study. I would go out with my friends, binge watch Netflix, basically all the stuff a kid SHOULD be doing In year 7, I moved to India, which was a decision my mom made. I don’t fit in, but that’s not what is truly bothering me; it’s the work. I joined a school with the IB curriculum and I’m currently in year 10. The amount of work and all nighters I am pulling is ridiculous. I get around 2-3 hours of sleep every night and I end up vomiting from time to time. What I’m doing is not healthy, I am awkward, but there’s just so much to do in so little time. I’m so used to always having good grades that I feel I’m good at nothing else but academics. I have these really important exams in a few months and I’m just juggling a million different things. I’m losing myself, my personality and I’m not living or thriving, just trying to survive every day. I’m crying all the time, stressed about a million different things and I don’t do things I love anymore. I also have to have the constant reminder on what I’m missing out on. I’m in touch with a few of my old friends from England on *** and they always go to the park, go sledging, meeting up with friends. I don’t have the interesting personality I once did so I have no friends to meet up with, not that I have the time anyway. I Miss the person I once was and I know I can’t get her back because of my studies. I’m losing myself and I want to be ok again.
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