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...See more so this is a longer story… i met my internet best friend in august 2017 (we were both 17) on tumblr and we instantly became best friends. we talked every day, snapchatted the whole time and called a lot. so in november 2018 i decided to visit her and so i took a flight all the way to scotland (i’m fron germany). we talked about visiting each other a lot and were very excited to finally meet each other. i have spent i think 3 days with her and everything was great and we had lots of fun, did many things together and overall i really enjoyed meeting her in real life! i flew back home and when i arrived i obviously texted her and told her that i arrived safely. well after these 3 days we kinda stopped talking. no texts, no snapchats, nothing. and i dont even remember why I never texted her but i think i was just waiting for her to reach out. so we didnt talk i think for the whole december and january. in february we started texting again, i cant really remember who reached out first. we were updating each other about whats been happening in our lives and she told me she was not doing too good. i think she mentioned something with therapy etc. of course i was very concerned and asked whether i could help in any way. she wanted to tell me the whole story but it never came to that point. so in the next weeks we texted very irregularly. i didnt understand what happened between us bc like i said we used to text each day… well in march i asked her how she was doing and didnt get an answer. a few days later i asked again but still no answer. in may i had enough and texted her “you know youre a bitch”. shortly after that message i saw that she blocked me everywhere, on every social media app we used to talk on. until this day i dont understand why she did that, she never gave me an answer. i tried to find her account on other platforms and confronted her and asked why she did that. i never got an answer back but instead was blocked every time i tried to reach out. i even texted one of her friends and asked why she did that to me. they couldn’t give me an answer either and until this day i still struggle to understand what happened between us. after all this time i still miss her every day and its been 3 years already but i just cant let go of our friendship because it used to be so strong! now a little bit of background information: we are both gay and i had a girlfriend at the time i visited her in scotland. it was never a problem for her or for me but now it recently came to my mind that she maybe had a crush on me…? although i really cant imagine that because we were always best friends. and even if that was true, why would she stop talking to me all of a sudden and didnt even give me an explanation. i dont think she had feelings for me but that is my only clue that i have as to why this all happened. so last week i couldn’t control myself and i tried to google her and maybe find anything where i could reach out to her again in hopes to maybe finally talk to her again. i looked everywhere and i finally found her on LinkedIn. i even payed for a premium membership just to be able to text her and thats what i did. i texted her and again asked her if she could give me a reason why she stopped talking to me. i even apologized if ever did something wrong. i told her that i miss her everyday and that i miss our friendship. i begged her to reach out to me. but i still didnt get a response…. but she also didnt block me on there…. i dont know what to do because i just desperately want to talk to her and find out what was happening at that time. so what do you think? whats your answer to my story?

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