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emotionalBanana4556
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I've lost 16 jobs since 2018 due to my ADHD and I'm so tired of juggling it all
ADHD Support / by emotionalBanana4556
Last post
 April 17th
...See more My impulsiveness and lack of attention apparently has made it hard to keep me around for long at my jobs. Except for the ones where I basically don't have to do anything but sit there and think all day. This latest one fired me yesterday after five days of extensive training and a lack of applying certain things that they barely trained me on to begin with (they told me I would watch videos to get up to speed and decided to call it quits on me before even showing me the videos to begin with along with never giving me a one on one to go over questions they had me write down from the handbook). Many layers to this but I don't want to do it anymore. I know people are just going to tell me not to give up but I wish I could. This is awful. I try so hard and the world tells me I'm not good enough but this stupid country doesn't have universal health care to make it easier to get my disability treated. I'm moving to Norway as soon as I get the chance. That's the only thing I care about now...
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My sister compared me to a dog and I feel hurt by it
Self-Esteem / by emotionalBanana4556
Last post
 April 7th
...See more I was with my family for Easter today and my sister couldn't help herself. Idk if she's insecure or what but there's a reason why we don't talk much and the fact that she is disrespectful sometimes (she doesn't mean to I don't think but if I even TRY to tell her why it was wrong she'll only argue with me and tell me "it's just a joke. You're so sensitive! Blah blah blah!" and make fun of me further about it. What does a guy like me do in that situation?! She's 40, I'm 30 and I've been treated like this by her and my mom SO MANY TIMES throughout my life. And they wonder why my self esteem has always been low. Maybe...oh idk...raise me better or be better people next time? I go to therapy cuz of them and other people like them. I know people make mistakes and have their own past and insecurities but that doesn't mean there's an excuse you feel me? Can I just get some healing words or encouragement please? They wonder why I don't spend time with them that much...I mean...why man?! How different life could have been had I been raised better but at the end of the day, I need to be my own man now. I'm trying y'all. I'm trying to heal and trying to grow but I just hate the world. I've been neglected a lot. My mom admitted it to me when I was in school. I'm just hurting right now.
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My Sister Called Me a Dog. We have the same brains apparently. Am I the problem or her?
Self-Esteem / by emotionalBanana4556
Last post
 April 5th
...See more I'm celebrating Easter (should've gone to church with my spiritual family instead) and we went to my sister's place to catch up and she compared me to a dog either as a joke or to spite me somehow. Now I remember why I don't talk to her much. She's the kind of person (whole family is actually) to insult each other and call it a joke just to get away with it and make fun of people and get angry or annoyed when you're calling it what it is. My mom once told me in highschool as I had tears down my face (I'm a 30 year old man btw) with such an annoyed look on her face "Are you seriously crying?! It's just a joke! Get over it!" I regret not going to church instead but something told me it would be loving to join them. I learned my mistake this year. That's gaslighting isn't it? Gosh man, I love them but they leave such a sad, heartbroken hole in my heart every year. I try giving them God but they don't want it. I had some conversations here and there but it's always "maybe some other time" or "no! I am perfectly happy with what I have so stop! Keep it to yourself!" Happy Easter lol. My sister mocks everyone all the time. Even Jesus.
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What do I do about my alcoholic dad?
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by emotionalBanana4556
Last post
 December 15th, 2023
...See more I love the guy but there has always been an awkward disconnect with him. I am 28 and I had to move back in with him and my mom this year due to rent going up too high. I am so grateful for them but it is painful when it is just me and my dad at home. My mom works still and is nearing retirement. My dad has been retired and on disability for a few years now. I can't help but want to avoid him despite how much I care. I really want him to enjoy the rest of his life and be healthy but he seems afraid to ask the real important questions and get out of his comfort zone. He has always been that way. I feel like I am too though. All we do is talk sports and his past from time to time. I can't stand it. I wish I could live away from him but I feel terrible about it. I'm just so used to him being in the background of my life due to his problems with anxiety and alcohol. I want Him to know Christ as I do as well. These deep personal topics just feel almost impossible to try and have with him. Even listening to him talk about his past was uncomfortable for me but I appreciated him doing it. Like...I could barely make eye contact...I have a feeling I need to force myself to talk about things I don't want to and that is going to be hard...any encouragement and advice is appreciated. I just feel a lot about this and need compassion.
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