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emotionalCircle9548
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I think I have BPD and ruined all my relationships.
Personality Disorders Support / by emotionalCircle9548
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 April 27th, 2025
...See more I called the cops on my husband and involved my family in it, saying I was scared, when it was a small argument and I was in another room, supposed to be calming down. My family was talking about me leaving and taking my son and the animals all the way to another state, and I was motivated to go along with the plan, but I told my husband I was coerced. After I called the cops, my husband told me the relationship was over, but the next day he gave me the chance to try again. I told my husband I wanted to leave after the argument and he told me to go ahead and leave, so I panicked. I told my sister and mom I was scared, and that was what caused the rabbit hole of me conspiring of taking my son. I was having second thoughts, but my family told me he was manipulating me so I pushed on with the plan. The next morning, I told my family that we were making up and I wasn't going through with it. Today though, I told my family they shouldn't come out for my son's birthday because of the issue of planning to kidnap my son, because my husband would not want to see them and would want any visits me and my son have with them to be supervised by law enforcement. I also later told my family that I would take a break from talking to them to work on my marriage. They were obviously upset by not being able to come out and me not wanting to talk to them, but my mom was more understanding than my sister. My sister blew up my husband's phone and was arguing with him, blaming him on the decisions and saying he was manipulating me, though I told my family that I was only telling them the bad things so I was painting him as a monster all these years. Well, my sister told him that I was going along with the plan and now my husband doesn't know who to believe and is not on good terms with me. I will probably not be on good terms with his friends or family either. I burned bridges with so many people for such a trivial reason. I truly think I have BPD because of how much I was damaging my relationships and being so flippant. I have a absolutely no idea what to do now to rectify this situation. I am desperate to fix this damage.
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