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A couple questions about my psychological health and how to get back on my feet.
Safety & Knowledge at 7 Cups / by energeticSquare80
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 April 16th, 2015
...See more So I was just thinking. My mom has told me a lot about my childhood, most of which I don't remember. I was able to walk at around 8 - 9 months old, I skipped over crawling. I was mute and would talk until I was put into a situation and I started talking in full sentences. I used to hate doing anything creative when I was young, I hated playing video games and now its some of my favorite things to do now. I've always hated school even before going to school, my learning style is kind of weird where if I don't understand what is being taught or what I'm trying to do, I will put it down and not touch or think about it for several days, come back and then be able to do it as if I've always done it, I never particularly cared for people, even when I got into school, and even when I socialized I would get embarrassed and hide despite not doing anything wrong and then would rarely ever speak to those people again. I would never speak to boys my age due to bullying because I wasn't all sporty and didn't act like a typical boy for that time period. I was always naturally strong and even when I threw temper tantrums it was hard for my mom to even keep me held down. I was always questioning the logic about our world from a young age, I was always questioning authority and saw what I thought were flaws in the way parenting was done or rules of the house. I remember been 1 - 3 years old but it was just a flash before my eyes. I remember that before any of that I saw a bright warm light and standing in front of it. I always heard people making comments about how I looked like I was walking like I was on a mission. People find it odd how I seem to be able to relate to all of their life experiences and pull some similar experience from my own life. My biggest subject I hated was math and always struggled with it, I remember how in first grade I had issues with subtractions and took me the longest amount of time to understand it. I was always very sheltered up until I moved down to Florida and finished 5th grade. I was always in my younger cousins shadow, my grandparents (I call them the evil grandparents) always favored him because he was sporty and outdoorsy. My father (technically step father) side of the family never really liked because I wasn't blood related or something like that. I sometimes wish even to this day I could go back to that period and I don't know why because I don't care for it. I've always felt like I've had to do things on my own and only rely on myself, and yet I'm always relying on my parents for help and people's advice to make a decision. I never go all in on decisions only ever half way so I can pull out. I never understood why people were so crazy about sex. I always had this feeling of being different, like there is no one out there I can relate to. I can't stand being in one group because it's always the same stuff. I am for some reason very noticeable in public even though I dress in a way that's not. I've always thought about others and how I can help them and yet I always get called selfish and self-centered when all I want to do is help, especially by my mom which she often says I act selfish, when I really am trying not to. I want to socialize with people but at the same time I don't. Based on all of these various things about my childhood, what would you say the psychological impact all of this had, what does it say about my mind, how would this psychologically affect me in the future, and what struggles could you see from all of that? One might be able to see several psychological issues in there, but I want to know what everyone in this group thinks as a whole since this is something I don't ever really put into words or really talk about.
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