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Toxicity
Relationship Stress / by enidbeing
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 December 16th, 2022
...See more Hey I am 18 years old and currently preparing for a entrance exam..I have a bf . It's been 1.5 year since we are togther... But from last 4 months things are not going right because it became a long distance due to my studies . He became abusive on calls and chats and started yelling at me due to his own family problems but everytime i gave him chances and told him not to do it again..but he did so many times.. from a week i could not really take it was giving me stres and i wasn't able to focus . So i told him that i want breakup. Which i usually said since the day 1 when he started abusing me in anger.. but he didnt stop. .and everytime when he begin to realise that i ll go.. he ll start emotionally blackmail me that he ll harm himself if i leave him... But i don't want that so i never left him .. but this time it was so much and i just lost my feelings for him ..and i told him to brkup ..he didnt stoped crying and starting emotionally blackmailing me agian he said he ll ruin his life ..and i ll be the reason. .. i was so hlpless and told him that i need time until I don't clear my entrance exam ... And he said ok for this . But now he have started pretending like i have hurt him so much and he is dying daily that i don't give him time . But i .know that when i again start talking to him normally he ll repeat himself again.. ok don't understand what i to do now.. i m here far from my home preparating for a toughest exam and he is not telling me live peacefully. He has become so toxic that it's hard to leave him completely.. if i ll try i m scared that he ll do something wrong to himself..and now he is behaving like it was never his fault and he just want to stay with me . But that toxicity i cant take anymore and i have too lost my feelings for him but he didnt have so at this point I m really feeling so bad that i m hurting that guy and not talking to him properly but i also know that is not good for me. He don't even respect me... I don't know what to do.. should i go back and talk nicely or should I just leave him ?
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