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exuberantPeach6704
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Depression
Depression Support / by exuberantPeach6704
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 August 10th, 2017
...See more I am 20 years old and I've been suffering from depression for the past 8 years. My life hasn't been perfect, but there are so many people that have had it way worse than me, but still manage to be happy. Although my life isn't all that bad the main problem is the constant feeling of self-hatred. I constantly feel worthless, unlovable and subhuman. On top of that is crippling loneliness. All of my social interactions are incredibly shallow. I always wear a mask, never showing my true self to people because I am afraid they will leave me when they find out who I really am. I don't blame them. Why would anyone want to be around me? I don't deserve love. All I deserve is pain! I self-harm almost every day to punish myself for being such a worthless waste of space because the only thing that ever gives me any pleasure is knowing that I am getting the pain and punishment I deserve.
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Depression as a self-destruct mechanism
Depression Support / by exuberantPeach6704
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 June 1st, 2017
...See more Sometimes I think that depression is our body's own way of disposing itself once we are not useful to the wold anymore. LIke if you are a worthless waste of space that doesn't contribute anything of value to this world you get into a state of depression untill you eventually commit suicide. That way you will no longer waste the world's resources.
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