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exuberantWillow4681
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Spiders taking over my life.
Anxiety Support / by exuberantWillow4681
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 October 7th, 2021
...See more I just moved into our new house, my husband and I. The only problem is spiders. Wolf spiders. I see at least 2 a day, we have done alot of measures for them......now we just have to tape vents up and not use them at all. I keep our house clean to the MAXIMUM. We have a ranch style house so I can easily see them. I just now got the balls enough to stand on a chair and drown them in poison and clean it up instead of just sobbing at it and just staring. Even when killing them I cry, get hot, trembly, and nauseous. I can't sleep, my husband sees how stressed I am about it and he gets stressed because he knows how unhappy I am. I am trying to not let this effect my marriage, everything I look up "how to get rid of spiders " the web page shows me pictures of them and it freaks me out worse I will shake and cry even looking at pictures. I feel like they're all over me. They never were in my room but I found one this morning and he killed it before work I am trying not to flip my lid.I know my phobia is annoying and irrational but now all I want to do is sit in bed with the lights on cause I feel like even stepping on the ground they'll crawl on foot or something. I an tremendously scared of them and the thought of babies on their back. There's no way I can afford to just get therapy for this and I am really trying to get my life back. I just want to cry 24/7. It makes me not even want to live in my own home or in this world.
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