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Depression Support / by fairmindedFriend8806
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 March 27th
...See more I'm about to turn 22 in a few days, and ever since I've turned 20, I've struggled with feelings of depression over my perspective toward life and nostalgia. I had managed to forget those thoughts a year ago, but they've come back. And all I do is cry for entire days thinking about the past: my childhood and teenage years. I miss them so much I wish I could go back and relive those times, especially since my parents and my grandma are getting old, as are my brothers and friends. Just thinking that we'll never be able to do the things we used to do frustrates and saddens me so much. I think about those times I used to go out with my dad and my grandma and have snacks together or when I used to play videogames with my brothers or watch anime with them. And when I used to see my friends every day at school and do silly things with them when I got out of class. I just can't seem to move on. I feel like I won't ever be as happy as I used to be back then, so dumb and innocent and curious about the world. It was such a safe place for me. My family is worried about me and they try to help me as best as they can. I don't wanna to worry them. I don't wanna be a burden if I am to keep thinking like this the rest of my life. So I've had thoughts about dying. I feel like at least then I won't feel like this, I won't grow older and I won't have to see my family die or my friends leave when they decide to make their own lives elsewhere. I've been seeking professional help, but I have no hopes that it will get better.
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