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...See more I have been with my husband over 15 years and on a few instances (maybe 4 times) I have found out that he's secretly watching strong p*rn sites, looking at sexual pictures, all of that. I told him that it's the secrecy and the level of the stuff that I was concerned with, especially with our kids around that might find it on a device. Each time he's promised to stop, and I have always trusted that he will. Despite this, this has happened about 4 times, that I know of anyway. The most recent time a few weeks back I was using his tablet (with his knowledge and consent) and it flashed up that he'd bought an obviously gay sex toy. Going by past experience I decided to look more closely as i had a feeling there would be more, and discovered he did in fact have more, that he was hiding from me. He also had di*k pics in his gallery (not of his own) and a hidden subscription to a gay magazine. Along with this he had kept an old mobile phone hidden that he says he was using only to watch videos of p*rn to get off. I have confronted him. I've said I want him to be happy. I told him, if this is what you want, tell me. He says he was just bored and frustrated and he's got rid of everything. He says he'll dedicate to me. He says he's never been physically unfaithful. I'm concerned he's not really happy. I'm concerned that he's bi or gay and needs to explore this. I feel diminished in myself and like I'm a bit of a fool, really. But I do love him and he's a good father. Nevertheless, I don't want to be trapped in a marriage where I'm just a cover-up for him and where he doesn't love me in the same way. How do I really know? I have no family or friends to talk this through with and so I need some advice. What do I do from here?

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