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freechurros
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PathStep 21 Compassion hearts63 Forum posts3 Forum upvotes6 Current upvotes6 Age GroupTeen Last activeJuly, 2026 Member sinceJune 14, 2025
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hi, my name’s NJ. or you can call me Mav, whichever is fine. my username is based off of a quote from a show called Bojack Horseman.

i draw, ice skate, snowboard, skii and a lot of other things that aren't worth mentioning here. currently studying in high school.

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i don't know what to do
Depression Support / by freechurros
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 December 3rd, 2025
...See more is it just me or did anyone else just decide that their life was no longer worthy of living (at 11) and gave up early in life (school) in general, and tried focusing on living rather than existing because they thought they'd be already rotting 6 feet below in a few years (at 12) anyway. and now is failing school miserably right after they found a small reason and a faint flicker of hope for a future? i genuinely can't put in as much effort and do as good as others. my only way of passing right now is to just constantly cheat. i do my best, i really do, but it's never enough. i'm scared. and this is only 9th grade.
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curiosity
Depression Support / by freechurros
Last post
 June 15th, 2025
...See more this had been a question for me for a few years now. if most people start to struggle from a young age. i am now a teen, i'm in middle school. and i have been struggling with severe depression for a few years now, along with persistent suicidal ideations and multiple other mental illnesses, which i know i won't ever act on, yet it still crosses my mind every day without a second rest. been like this, ever since turning 11 to be exact. and for all my life, i had the "everyone's struggling, your pain is nothing compared to theirs, and look how they're doing absolutely fine? just act normal like everyone else. stop being such a whiny little child" mindset. as if that wasn't enough, i have never been in any healthy friendships in real life, which makes the condition even worse. and big holidays like Christmas is not the same, like, all the warmth is gone before i could fully enjoy it consciously. what i'm trying to say is, i feel like my childhood's been ripped away from me. and i wonder if anyone else feels the same? if it's truly common? thank you for making time and reading all this nonsense. i appreciate you all.
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