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Should I walk away?
Relationship Stress / by goodShip9587
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 October 26th, 2019
...See more Hey guys. I will try cover all the details without boring you. I have been with my partner for almost two years now, we have a 1 year old together and his two kids, 3 and 4 from his previous marriage. Things have been rocky between us because of his two kids, eldest had issues adjusting to her mum leaving and me coming into the picture. Had another issue not so long ago where my partner cheated in a sense. I saw it as cheating and so did he. He had raunchy conversations with a friend/customer (he runs a business). It caused some issues and I took some time away. While I was away he promised that things would change and get better, we would have family weekends where he won't work, he would help me more with our youngest, he would stop drinking, we would go on a family Christmas holiday and he even offered to give me regular massages as my back had been playing up. The family weekends never happen actually working today all day, I don't get any extra help with our youngest, he drinks every night, family holiday cancelled after I spent ages booking and planning and the massages happened for a while until he admitted one night while drunk he only does it to help his chances at getting some . Not that we don't do it often... I could very easily put my foot down and say no, or we are doing this but I'm at a point where I don't know if I care anymore. His two girls while beautiful at heart are driving me mad. They don't like me or they do and they have an odd way of showing it I don't know. They are rough with each other and rough with the one year old, who can't be aloud to wander around the house learning all that stuff one year olds learn because they get in her face, yell, scream, bang on things because they insist she look at them, she follow them, she play with them. I don't mind her interacting and playing with them but she has nearly gotten hurt so many times. It just feels like everything is crashing down on me right now. I kinda want to leave, have just me and the one year old and start a proper happy life for the both of us as I feel we are both missing out on many things, it's not fair. Kicker is I feel so guilty just thinking about leaving, he would struggle financially and with his business as he needs someone to watch his two girls so he can work. He doesn't like daycare, got sick of the girls getting sick from other kids there. Plus I don't think he enjoyed having to pay so much. what should I do? Am I being selfish? just feel so deflated, I want to cry all the time and I feel sick.
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