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hannahdeftones
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The Grief I feel
Grief & Loss / by hannahdeftones
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 October 26th, 2025
...See more I’ve seen lots of posts about people who grieve for people. For loved ones, and I feel so sad reading all those and I’m sorry for all of every single persons loss. But out of curiosity I wanted to share mine with you people and o wanted to ask, do you also feel those griefs? I grieve a vision of myself that has never existed, like a person u never were and that youre never going to be. I grieve for looking at myself in a good way. Not worrying about a kg, not worrying about grades, not worrying about achievements or anything. I grieve feelings ive never experienced. I wanna know how it feels being on a drug which makes me feel some kind of thing I grieve for. I grieve moments that maybe should’ve went different, or that should’ve felt different. I grieve the pain, the cry’s I let out when I self harm, everytime I try to recover. The safe feeling I get from things I know that r bad for me. I grieve a weird type of love that ive never been able to feel. I can’t describe what it is, but it’s not the kind of love that leaves but the kind I never let myself believe I deserved. I grieve softness which I won’t let trough my doors, which I harden. And probably the most grieve success. It’s probably normal, or am I tweaking?
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