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helpmylife2021
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My strange addiction
Addiction Support / by helpmylife2021
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 January 24th, 2022
...See more So I’m not sure if this counts as an addiction, but I don’t know what else it is. I am a white woman and i’m married to a white man. We’ve been married for almost 13 years now. Problem is, I’ve always been attracted to black men too. It used to not be a problem, but now it is. Every attractive black man I see, I make eyes at, I flirt with if I can. Well, one of them finally gave me his number. So I text him. We have been texting for a few months now, and he made it very clear he wanted to have sex. I said I couldn’t because I was married, but really wanted to because he’s very sexy and I love his dark skin. After certain conversations and spending some time with him, I finally had sex with him. Now, my marriage is gonna have to end. My heads not in the right place. I loved being with this other man. I don’t regret it at all. It was beautiful and he was wonderful. But, I’m also heartbroken because this man that I had sex with hasn’t spoken to me in about 5 days. So I think my fun with him is over. So I’ve destroyed my marriage and the man that helped me do that may be done with me and I’m lost. I want him so badly. I don’t have to have love. I don’t care if he loves me. I just want his body. I loved when we were together and I placed my hands on his chest and compared my pale white skin to his beautiful dark complexion. He makes me so happy. And now I think he’s done with me. I’m devastated.
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