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...See more Hello. There's a lot going on so I'll try to be brief. I've been struggling with depression and various emotional issues for a very long time. Been unhappy in my relationship with my fiancee for a while even tho he is a good man; lot of trauma from childhood trauma that has caused a lot of problems for me like fear of confrontation and letting others down among other things. I've been unemployed for a long time, over a year even though I have a degree in finance, I haven't been able to find employment. I have no motivation for anything, even doing daily chores is a struggle. Been also dealing with recurring childhood trauma from alcoholic parents who abused me.I can't even seem to get anywhere finding affordable therapy, at least not with ones that will get back to me. Alcohol feels like the only thing that takes the edge off and I feel like I can't tell anyone in my life, not even my fiancee cause I seem to put him on the defensive easily and he shuts down on me or his advice is very vague like " I need to deal with my issues or move on" and I just don't know how to deal with my anger and sadness and depression on my own. I keep making mistakes some of the same ones. I'm trying to keep moving forward and remaining diligent with job searches and all. I feel like a witch, worthless and deserving of my pain it's part of the reason I deal with thigs on my own and don't want to burden anyone but I'm just too weak to keep dealing with this on my own. I guess I just want to know I'm not alone and there's some kind of hope and a future to look forward to and keep fighting for.

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