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Newbie Hub / by imaginativeHemlock7509
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 July 19th, 2025
...See more Hi am 19 am a chill person. Just wanting to have someone to talk to vibe with. We can just get out mind off things. I recently got out of a toxic relationship and lately I just been feeling..alone. I don't have much friends I just only have one best friend but I need just chill with someone. Anyone want talk? Am into cats! Am into Spider-Man! Am into r&b music. Am into art! And am very open minded and chill! 😁
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Toxic father. Weird cousin. Now Toxic Ex.
General Support / by imaginativeHemlock7509
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 July 18th, 2025
...See more I can't catch a break. I recently ended a three year relationship with my ex who was so toxic and controlling of me and now am looking back in my life and wondering when will it end! I had a bipolar father who treated me horrible and would switch up and then I had a cousin who I trusted like a brother have weird intentions with me...this is hard ..I don't even know how to feel honestly. It's like "another day of my crazy life"
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My Journal-Toxic Life
Journals & Diaries / by imaginativeHemlock7509
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 July 18th, 2025
...See more I recently had to cut ties with my bipolar father. My cousin who was weird towards me and now a three year relationship with my ex who was toxic. All my life I dealt with toxic. Now am feeling lost not knowing how to react and think but one question? When will it stop? When will I have actually have someone who has pure intentions for? Good thoughts ? Good vibes? No harm? Just pure love for me.
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She is Unhealthy For Me
Relationship Stress / by imaginativeHemlock7509
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 July 18th, 2025
...See more So I just recently ended a three year relationship, am struggling right now telling myself this isn't healthy for me. I been in a relationship with this girl who I thought was my everything but there was dark parts of this relationship we had. We had good moments but the rest was toxic. I broke up with her a couple of times because of the way she treated me. She became possessive over me and she was so very insecure no matter how much I told her she was pretty and I loved her. One of the broken ups was because she told me she was jealous over me when we first meet. She hated how skinny I was and how I had so many friends. That hurt deeply I didn't want a relationship base of that. I wanted a relationship base on pure intentions and actually love. She then apologized and said she did love me so..stupid me I took her back and then another time was when I needed space and she couldn't take that and took pills..to off herself...I had a panic attack and she started saying she was so sorry and would change..after that things were alright but there was cracks here and there and recently she been getting anger about her family issues and would shut down and wouldn't even talk to me when I tired to tell her what's wrong. That caused a argument because she wanted me to sleepover but the same time she was ignoring me when I picked her up for work. I told her no and told her we need space. She got mad and upset. So, instead I went to a friend's house to tell them what was going on because deep down I was getting tired of how she was being. I turned off my location so she wouldn't know I was at a friends and that's when It hit me I didn't need this in my life..she was already jealous over my friend bevause I had a "connection" with my friend and she would be upset whenever I go over to my friends but at the end of the night I was with my ex every night I slept over and would be over. She then found out I turned off my location and got upset and then made me choose over her or my friend. That's when I broke it off I couldn't do it anymore..and even know am struggling because she keeps blowing up my phone saying she sorry and how she would change but..she keeps switching up saying I don't love her and I used her. I keep telling myself over and over even though she giving me attention and would give me sweet nothings. Having a relationship were it's mostly toxic isn't worth it.
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No help and I hope in the future I can get a better life then now
Work & Career / by imaginativeHemlock7509
Last post
 June 19th, 2025
...See more It's hard being a young adult. Am 19 and recently I been doing things on my own. It's hard you know making money I got so used to having my dad helping me out. Am not trying to sound spoiled. I understand am adult now and should do things but it's tough because I also was given a car from my dad but it was a project car and needed a lot of work to it and I actually left my dad and haven't spoken to him since because yes he did give me money whenever I needed but he was also controlling and crazy. Am pretty sure he is bipolar he would have this switch ups. He called the cops on me one time and that was the moment I knew I had to get away from him it was all just because we got into a argument about how didnt want to live with him anymore because how dirty the house was and how he treated me. He was a anger person and would take it out on me. Ever since then I been staying with my mom while I work but even she could do so much for me. Am glad she gave me a roof over my head for now since I was still in highschool and now I graduate and going to college in two months. But I been trying to start my car and fix it but it's problem after problem with the car and all the money I worked for was going to go towards my college but most of it gone to the car. I been trying to fix the car so I drive safely to college but it's hard trying to do in two months I been thinking of getting a second job but I also don't want all my time wasted on just working because I wanted to also use the summer to also see my friends because I got go off far away from them. It's tough really I wish my dad wasn't crazy.. I wish I had support or help just a bit . I wish he was actually a good father and still help me out. He was also mechanic but the thing is I don't trust him after the way his behavior is..and now that I left I realized the money he would give me would also come with a price. The price was to stay with him forever. He wanted me to be stuck with him and I didn't want that..I found out later he was also using me for food stamps and benefits. It sucks. I just wanted to vent a bit about how I been feeling lately I been trying to do things my own but it's tough ..it really is. I know it's a welcome to adult life it's just man I hope in the future my struggles could stop and am trying now to give myself a better future. So I guess am just saying all this to just vent and just a little encouragement would be helpful please. I really need hear "am glad you been doing things on your own" and I know my crazy father is wanting for me to go back to him and say "I told you need me" he wants me to go back I just know it so I can sound desperate and need of him so he can't control me again. But am not. Am not ever going to talk to him again. That life that I had with him wasn't a life. It was a nightmare and now I just got do things the best I can . 🙏🏼
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Crazy Father
Depression Support / by imaginativeHemlock7509
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 June 19th, 2025
...See more When I was younger my dad was so filled with hate. He would be abusive and always yelling towards me and my mom. He once tired to poison my mom to kill her. He just had this crazy behavior and hatred in his heart. Growing up in a environment like that I just was a kid and still am. Now am 19 years old and looking back I wished I was protected from that environment. That emotional distress and trauma I now carry with me. Knowing that was my father. He was a monster and I can't believe I had to go through that and now am left broken because of his behavior.
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Trauma From Father
Trauma Support / by imaginativeHemlock7509
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 June 17th, 2025
...See more I found out from a family member my father recently disowned and said how he doesn't want anything to do with me . Four months ago he tired calling the cops on me because I wanted to leave because I was tired the way he would get these switches up. He will yell at me for no reason. One time we were at a gas station and he was yelling so badly at the top of his yungs. All because I didn't know how to park the car right to get gas. It was so bad the gas clerk had to check what was up. A few days later we got into a argument because I was tired of living in a dirty environment he provided and I was tired of his behavior he gave towards me. He then got anger at the news and started to switch up on me and tired calling the cops because I wanted to live with my mom instead and tired to make me seem like I a problem and told his family members I gone "crazy" while I cried on the floor scared and disbelief having a panic attack because my own father called the cops on me for no reason just because I told him I wanted to leave. I really don't know what to think of this ever since then I been a way from him no contact with him but it really hurt knowing that my dad is like that. I know he has mental issues he is the one who is crazy but I thought he did care and loved me but to him it was like I betrayed him because I didnt want live with him anymore and I found out later he was just keeping me with him because he wanted food stamps and benefits off me and once I decided I wanted to leave he got anger and decided to do something against me.
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Depression From Family
Depression Support / by imaginativeHemlock7509
Last post
 June 19th, 2025
...See more Hi am 19 year old and I been dealing with a situation about my dad. I recently spilt from him four months ago but am still dealing with the emotional stress he left on me. Am pretty sure my dad has mental issues and that's the reason why I left him because how crazy he acted towards me and treated me. He would get these switch ups and start to yell at me for no reason it got so bad to the point he was screaming at me at a gas station because I didn't know how to park the car right to get gas and the gas clerk had to come out to check to see if everything was okay and then I got so tired of his behavior towards me I decided to leave and I told him but he then called the cops on me and started making me seem like I was the issue and started telling his family on the phone that I went "crazy" and ever since that day I just left with my mom and I recently found out from a family member he told them how he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore and disowned me. I really don't know what to think of this. It's crazy really. When I was a kid I knew he was so filled with hate and would get these anger outburst but I thought he learned from those mistakes but now..after all that I don't know what to think.
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