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...See more This girl, I meeted by wink, a dating app, suffered from Bulimia, I’m from Valencia, and despite that illness and the distance, 2h by car from her, we started knowing each other more and more and early we got a strong feeling between us. We loved a lot as friends, and we both wanted to be more than that but the distance was a problem. She was in some moment really really into me. I visited her in Albacete 6 months after texting for the first time, and the conexion in person was just magical, I never had something like that. Laughing 24/7 and everything was just fantastic. Suddenly, one of those days I spended with her in her house. She started with a bulimia attack thinking she wasn’t enough for me and I tried to help her but she was just really really bad and I got an anxiety attack as well for seeing her that badly and she was saying me so many weird things that made me think that I was never going to see her again (thing that was true but at the moment I didn’t knew it). At Monday, the day after. She told me that the best was to stay as just friends and leave that kind of contact. I felt so do so so heart broken I was just like a child, really ilusionanted about a future together as we talked hundreds of times. I thought I finally founded the one, the one that matched me perfectly. And now I ended up blocking her after she being mean with me at saying that she would not “not miss you ever” and “see you forever”. I felt those words as bullets in my chest. I couldn’t realise a girl like she said that to me after all we meant to each other, after all the effort and care I gived to her and the love she gave to me despite she being a really shy person. After that amazing first contact were she gave me a surprise and present. After a month I’m still really hurted and still think of her everyday. I know time will heal, but I loved her so much, I never felt that in someone and I really now feel as if a part of me has leaved. I really wanted the best for her, the words she told me… I thought I would help her a lot, I helped her once she was inside the hospital. When I met her, she was still inside and we had to talk only on weekends. And I kept talking with her, and she thanked me eternally what I did for her, she was really proud and felt lucky of having me in her life. im still 18 years old and I feel somehow that I will not find someone like her, she was all I wanted after a long 2 years battelling with my depression. And she helped me a lot and I did to her, we thought we were meant to be together. And I fell as if my soul mate as she said, left me.

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