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iwanttobeastar
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i feel stuck in being a disappointment
Trauma Support / by iwanttobeastar
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 October 4th, 2025
...See more trigger warning: self-harm thoughts. i am afraid that i will just stay like this forever. i keep disappointing myself and my family by failing. i've been going back and dropping out of school these past two years. every time i feel like i could handle things better, the anxiety and trauma just stay with me and i collapse. there's this significant part of my life two years ago that triggered everything. it was when someone threatened my life, and since then i’ve become a living fear. i feel like every time i walk outside, there's someone ready to stab me. i hate that i am still affected by that even now. sometimes i wonder if that never happened, would i have become better? or if i could have been in a better headspace. because ever since then, i have been living in fear more than i already was even before that happened. it's ironic how i fear being k8lled but at the same time wish the same for myself.
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i feel stuck in being a disappointment
Depression Support / by iwanttobeastar
Last post
 October 3rd, 2025
...See more trigger warning: self-harm thoughts i am afraid that i will just stay like this forever. i keep disappointing myself and my family by failing. i've been going back and dropping out of school these past two years. every time i feel like i could handle things better, the anxiety and trauma just stay with me and i collapse. there's this significant part of my life two years ago that triggered everything. it was when someone threatened my life, and since then i’ve become a living fear. i feel like every time i walk outside, there's someone ready to stab me. i hate that i am still affected by that even now. sometimes i wonder if that never happened, would i have become better? or if i could have been in a better headspace. because ever since then, i have been living in fear more than i already was even before that happened. it's ironic how i fear being killed but at the same time wish the same for myself. i've been so careless with my life.
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