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kindWatermelon5023
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Frustrated rant about stuff (pardon me!)
ADHD Support / by kindWatermelon5023
Last post
 June 17th, 2025
...See more I am so tired right now. And I'm trying to sleep but my brain won't just stop. Like it's so noisy. It's really, really noisy. Like it can’t just be quiet. And it's frustrating. Even as I speak it's playing music in the background. I don’t understand why I have to be the one who’s struggling with stuff. I’ve seen other autistic people, I have seen other people with ADHD, I’ve seen other people with anxiety and depression, and I don't think of come across people who struggle as much as I do. Like I know that on social media, they can be selectively posting stuff that's only positive. It still feels like they have something to selectively show that they have something positive going on. I don't even have that. And it's so irritating. I can’t even be mad, but I am mad that other people are having a better time in life than I am. I have to strain my brain everyday trying to convince myself that this freaking loneliness is fine, that I am fine by myself. It's actually a disaster.
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Human Interaction
ADHD Support / by kindWatermelon5023
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 June 16th, 2025
...See more What’s the meaning of human relationships? Why do we crave them? What’s there to be gained? If it is to be loved, to be valued, to be respected, isn’t that selfish? It should be to love, to value, to care about and show affection towards others, and maybe we’ll get something back in return. But is getting something back necessary? Specifically for me? I don’t know. I’ve shown affection towards people without expecting anything (or much) in return, and I have been selfish in expecting too much. Neither of the approaches have worked for me. If “worked” means building sustainable, long-term relationships, that is. Right now, I’m a bit lonely. Actually, a “bit” is an understatement. I’m really craving some human interaction. Like I’ve reached out to multiple people without receiving any responses. And it sucks. I don’t understand how everyone else does it. Like how do they even manage to have a social circle? I can barely manage a conversation. And I desperately want to. I want to love. I want to talk. I want to share things. I want to be close to someone. Is that too much to ask?
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Finding a study partner
ADHD Support / by kindWatermelon5023
Last post
 December 14th, 2023
...See more Heyy everyone, I'm not diagnosed with ADHD but I have a strong feeling that it has something to do with my mental health. But that's not what I'm here to talk about. I have a lot of focus issues, and I need someone to be around me to be able to focus. I've been looking for someone to study with for a while now, but it's all in vain. I'm desperately looking for a study partner, someone who can hang around on video sessions while we both study, to hold me accountable. I'm a finance professional from India. I mostly study before 10 in the morning and after 8 at night. Please don't hesitate to DM me if you're interested! I look forward to hearing from you.
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I need help
Anxiety Support / by kindWatermelon5023
Last post
 November 11th, 2023
...See more **TRIGGER WARNING** If you have problems with anxiety or are easily overwhelmed, please do not continue reading. This is a cry for help. I am at my absolute worst. My anxiety is worse than it ever was. I'm anxious, all the time, always. It's been almost a month that it's been this way. It's hugely affecting my life. I'm not capable of doing the smallest of things. Sometimes, it's difficult to even breathe. I'm completely alone in this situation, I've got no support. No friends. No hope for anything. I'm just looking for someone long-term. Some kind of comfort. I've tried talking to listeners on here but I'm unable to hold even one complete conversation. I feel hated. By everyone. Everywhere. People look at me as if I'm some kind of a menace to the society. Please, can someone help me?
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I feel like I'm a burden to people.
Anxiety Support / by kindWatermelon5023
Last post
 June 12th, 2022
...See more I feel my mere existence is a burden to people. I feel undeserving of life. I've never felt that someone was happy because of me. Feel like everyone hates me. This has led to a lot of anxiety, loneliness, panic attacks and sabotaging human relationships. I don't know what to do.
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