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Struggling to make my aspirations come true
General Support / by kj1992
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 September 9th, 2014
...See more So, I'm bad about being concise. I'm even worse at describing my problems in a way that doesn't sound distant. I'm sorry if I come off really robotic here. Anyway, about my situation: I'm in my early twenties. I'm a juvenile diabetic and have been for twenty years (since I was a toddler, yes). I got on the insulin pump this year, which really was a big life changer in a positive way. I have nothing bad to say about that. I also have OCD, which comes out through my finding it hard to let go of...well, anything. Not to mention it impacts my daily state of mind, as I sometimes obsess over a piece of negative news for days on end until I lose sleep. I used to pull out my hair when stress, but for the most part I've gotten past that tic. Recently, I acquired a part-time job as a dog nanny but I discovered tonight that I'm going to be let go. I have maybe a week left to work before my employer lets me go. I don't have hard feelings or anything. It's not a situation she can help. It's just not very good on my emotional state right now. I've been trying to save up to attend a university in Alberta. I need to have 10K in my bank account to even be considered for a student visa, and that's a lot of money to earn when you can't drive, can't seem to keep a part-time gig, and can't ask your family for financial support. Losing this gig was really a big blow. I'm trying to see things rationally, but I'm having a really hard time. I just want to have a job that's steady enough I can maybe keep dreaming of attending the school I want to, and getting the career I want, and actually having dreams outside this place I'm in right now. I feel very stuck. It's worse than hitting a wall. It's like I've been bricked up in an enclosed space and I can't get out. I'm suffocating in my own sense of failure and the constant thoughts of negativity I have. I guess I'm just asking for some advice. A lot of people give me the "keep your chin up and good things will come to you" speech, but I'm someone who needs more than that. I need a solid piece of advice I can carry with me and use practically in my daily life. What I wish for most days is a life coach. It sounds stupid, but there are times I can't even imagine overcoming an obstacle most people class as everyday faire. I wish I had someone around who could give me real advice, so I didn't feel so alone. Sorry for the ramble/whining. I needed to vent and ask for some help.
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