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lumiosepallet
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I'm confused and desperate
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by lumiosepallet
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 June 17th, 2022
...See more My family is very conservative, they're all christians and I kinda am too, I don't like how they treat the LGBTQ community, they're so homophobic, but I didn't care so much because I thought I was heterosexual, so it's not gonna bother me anyway, but recently I'm getting aroused when I think about sex with the same gender. I started college recently and, sometimes, ppl go to the bathroom to have sex, so hearing about this situation made me have a dream about sucking someone's dick inside the bathroom, and fuck, I get so turned on by think about sucking a dick and drinking cum and someone pounding my ass (sorry if it got too graphical) because of that, I'm having the urge to try for myself, have a gay experience just so I could see if it's for me or not, but... Although I have my doubts about God existing and all that, what if everything is true? What if being gay really is an unforgivable sin? There are 4 possible outcomes. 1- God exists and being gay is a sin: A) I stick to the christian path and end up in heaven B) I come out of the closet and burn in hell for eternity 2- God doesn't exist, at least not the christian God A) I stick to the path and live a possibly unhappy life, and for nothing, because there's possibly nothing at all after you die, and of there is, I don't think they'll care of you're straight or not B) I come out of the closet and live a good and happy life of discovery about myself I think I'm bisexual, or pansexual, but the thing is, I have this massive crush on this girl, and she's the most christian woman that you'll find about my age, so, having any kind of gay experiences (sex outside of marriage, oh no! -gasp- the church said) would probably mean saying goodbye forever to the possibility of dating and marrying her, and I love her so much. But my biggest issue for real is going to hell, and the worst part is that we really can't prove if God is real or not, here on the land on the living tho, my biggest problem is my family, they'll fkn kill me of I come out, but I'll probably just do that after I move out of their house, anyway, PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME.
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