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mandystafford7
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Hi I'm Mandy, I'm about to be 20 years old and I feel hopeless about my life. I'm suffering from depression and loneliness













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I have no more hope
Depression Support / by mandystafford7
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 October 5th, 2024
...See more Hi, I'm new here. I'm hoping that reaching out may help me, but I do not have much hope. I don't think things have ever been as bad as they are right now. This is probably the hardest year of my life. My grandparents passed away in June, both of them. This is my first year at college and I was homeschooled so adjusting has been so so hard. I have felt depression since primary school. I am in college now. In the past I did horse riding, and that was my everything. I loved it more than life, then I got hurt and that was when I completely lost myself. I spent weeks in bed, I wouldn't get up in the morning and I couldn't sleep or eat. Three weeks ago, my first boyfriend of 6 months broke up with me. He was planning his life with me, he showed me houses he would want us to live in together. The same day he broke up with me he said he loved me. I've never known such betrayal. Impulsively I downloaded ***, as I wasn't managing being alone. I've been speaking with a guy for two weeks now, and we met at a market last Sunday. Then today he just blocked me after saying that he thinks he would be too distracting for my work and that my work is more important. I feel so much hurt and sadness. I can't even look at myself, or eat or swallow. My throat feels tight. It feels like everything I've ever done has been wrong. There's no reason for me to keep living. I am not needed on this earth and no one needs me, I'd be so easily replaced.
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