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...See more I just finished a month-long daily art challenge and I'm kind of crushed that no one seems to care at all. Like even assuming my art is not worth anything you'd think they'd give me credit for actually sticking to it every day for a month. People keep telling me (in nicer words) that I should just quit if I'm not enjoying it or it's my fault for wanting people to notice the things I spend hours on or caring what other people think (because normally people are completely immune to that?) I see positivity posts saying "Your art isn't bad, you're just a beginner" but I'm not a beginner at all. So it is just bad. People say I should devote this distress toward actually improving, but I find I cannot improve (at anything) *on purpose*. If I'm already doing *well enough* I will keep doing it long enough to actually improve, but if I'm focused on how I'm *not* good enough I can't keep it up for the *years and years* it takes to become good at all. Unfortunately it's impossible to ignore all the evidence that I'm not good. I think Internet 2.0 doesn't help because back in the day (I told you I'm not a "beginner") I made my own website and it didn't matter that no one looked at it because it wasn't interactive anyway, but now social media amplifies the popular stuff and you don't really have an idea of how much unpopular stuff is out there because you don't see it. You do, however, see people complain about getting only 40 notes on that piece which means everyone hated it, when you are lucky to get 2 yourself.

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