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modestOrange3314
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Do I leave him?
Relationship Stress / by modestOrange3314
Last post
 April 4th, 2019
...See more I've been with my significant other for almost 2 years. We were living together with our son who just turned one but I left about a month ago and moved in with my mom he stayed living in our apartment another month until he lost it due to money issues. Living together we always struggled with money he was irresponsible in that category he was a very mentally unstable person and would argue and fight with me in front of our son and get somewhat physical I finally had enough and left since I left he has been working hard to get mentally healthier and has even moved 2 hours away to start working and getting more money so we can live together again and I'm not sure I'm ready for that but I recently found out I am pregnant again so it makes things more complicated I love him but I'm not in love with him and I'm scared to Tell him. When we do argue and I threaten to leave him he threatens back and it makes me feel trapped every time I try to be open with him he gets upset and threatens to hurt himself its mentally and emotionally exhausting to me and plus I feel like I dont truly know him he's lied alot about his life that I slowly started to figure out I just don't know what to do I want to be happy and I want my babies to be happy
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Any Advice Helps (Please)
Relationship Stress / by modestOrange3314
Last post
 January 31st, 2019
...See more Hello I am 20 years old and I am in a relationship that I can't get out of, we've been together for 1 year and 8 months and our relationship hasnt always been bad there has been major bumps that I always ignored and I think part of it was we had a baby together who is now 10 months old, though he is a good father sometimes I worry about mine and my childs safety he has a bad temper and will destroy anything in his path and scream and yell in my face while my son is nearby or in my arms and he doesn't care, he's unrelaiable and makes things hard on me. I can't go to my family for a numerous amount of reasons and while I do have a job I only work 2 days a week for 3 hours (I don't always have a babysitter) I don't have any money the little money I do get he takes (mostly for bills) I don't know what to do I'm afraid he will try to take our son if I say I want to leave or wont allow me to leave (he has got physical with me before) please I'm young and I dont know what to do I want my son safe and out of this situation
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Insecurities in my Relationship
Relationship Stress / by modestOrange3314
Last post
 October 12th, 2018
...See more Ive been in this relationship for almost a year and a half now and Im not feeling the same way I once did, the past few months I just have been having this wave of insecurities and depression but its not all coming from the relationship but its the main part, hes not a bad guy he does provide for my family, we do have a baby together, but I feel we arent meeting each others needs he needs someon whos more of a care taker to him and is more emotionally available to some things and I need reassurance and more commitment a lot of it does come from past relationships and some bumps weve had and I cant let things go, I dont know why I dont understand why I cant let things go, and it plays on my insecurities big time, he could be here for me 24/7 tell me how much he loves me and everything he loves and sees in me but its gotten to a point where none of it matters and I just point out what he does wrong or he does something that adds to my insecurities and I just feel anger towards him we have views on different things that does cause fights and i feel I dont want to be in this relationship anymore but not for any reason that I dont want to be with him or I dont love him, or he makes me miserable, my insecurities and depression are getting worse and I want to leave before I get hurt, or I hurt him, I dont love myself and I dont feel happy, I love him and I love our family I just dont know what to do I cant stay in a place where Im making him and myself miserable because he cant understand me and I cant understand myself I dont trust him and I have no reason not to but its like Im just waiting for him to cheat or to leave me I dont understand Im miserable with myself and I want to fix our relationship I dont want to leave I love him more than anything but I need help
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Looking for a listening ear
General Support / by modestOrange3314
Last post
 January 13th, 2018
...See more I am 19 and currently I am having extreme anxiety, depression and loneliness, I have a lot going on in my life right now and feel like there's no one personally in my life that I can talk to, I'm not close with my family and the one friend I am extremely close with has their own life going on and I know I can't grieve to them 24/7 my boyfriend who I am currently 7 months pregnant by is out of state working and I know venting to him would only put more stress on him, he already worries about me being alone. I know I can be fine on my own I'm just really struggling with my mental well being, I have a hard time completely opening up but it's something I really need. I'm just looking for a friend a listener, someone that can hopefully help me not completely go crazy. And hopefully just relieve some stress and get to a better state of mind in this time in my life
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