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Internalized homophobia ?
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by najzlsndbjcjhsba
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 November 8th, 2021
...See more Oky so my issue is. I am in a relationship with a girl, in the beginning in the relationship she asked me a question asking how many people I’ve kissed before. I knew she never had her first kiss before. And honestly i cannot remind the accurate number of how many people I’ve kissed before (most of them i was drinking alcohol prior to). And repetitively i told her that i cant accurately tell her the number, but she insisted, while i was not comfortable just saying an estimate or number. She then guessed 20, and i said no. Then she guessed 9, and i just said yes to close off the conversation but i knew the number was higher than 9. Moving on, i was her first kiss, and she still sometimes joke and tease me about the total number of people ive kissed. While i was her first kiss. Till this day i feel so ancious and bad about that small white lie I’ve told. But i dont want to break her trust in me. Keeping in mind that this is my first proper relationship with a girl, and previously I’ve had relationships with boys. Where the second problem comes in, i feared that she doubts my sexuality because I’ve kissed more guys and then she’ll doubt my feelings for her.
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