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navyKiwi1776
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PathStep 13 Compassion hearts187 Forum posts38 Forum upvotes66 Current upvotes66 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2026 Member sinceMay 23, 2024
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my heart is aching
Depression Support / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 August 22nd
...See more Everyday, every time i stop doing anything or I stop talking to my friends, I fall back in those feelings. My heart aches uncontrollably, making my breathing lighter. It hurts everyday. It's hard to get up everyday. I'm so tired of myself for talking it out every time. I'm so tired of the psychiatry medications, sessions, therapies, counsellors. It hurts. I want my heart to feel something else than this pain. Its haunting me. Self sabotaging is my curse. I want to not be tired. I want to feel energetic. I want to stop medications. I want to feel like everybody else. I want to not think. Everything hurts. Living in my brain and body hurts. Neurodivergency, sensory overstimulations really adds on it. I want to be everything but I'm doing nothing. I want to stop blaming myself for everything.
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update
Student Support / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 October 6th, 2024
...See more i forced myself to go to the school counsellor 2 days ago. i let her know spesific things and my medications. she looks like a great person, she was intently listening me. it felt relieving. i felt lighter for a while.
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i feel drained
Student Support / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 September 30th, 2024
...See more It's hard to study with depression I can't keep my eyes open
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hey, just wanted to make an update.
Self-Harm Recovery / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 October 2nd, 2024
...See more First of all, I really appreciete the people here who spent their time to write a message back to support me. Being taken serious had positive effects on me. I today finally went to child adaloscent psychiatrist after 3 years. They prescribed me selectra and abizol syrup..The diagnosis isn't clear yet. The only concern of everyone except the psychiatrist was that it would go on my record. My family is fixated on those medication and when should i get it but not how i feel or think. We had really bad fights today. I litteraly can't control myself everytime i feel threatened physically. I provoke them more and hit them back repeatedly and hit myself too and tell stuffs without thinking. I feel terrible about it I can't hold myself
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trigger warning: self harm
Self-Harm Recovery / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 September 17th, 2024
...See more I've been feeling compulsive to hit my head repeatedly for a year, almost everyday. I'm trying to not as I can but it hurts more when i don't. And lately, these months i started to get overwhelmed so easily by my surroundings, or little things such as plan changes, even the way i put down the salt to the table. I tense up and feel the need to cover my ears or eyes. It hurts my brain. I'm 16. I'm concerned that I might have given myself a mild brain trauma. I cant ask help from my parents. When I had a breakdown like that in front of my mother because she raised her hand at me, she just mocked me by telling me to keep hitting myself. I dont really think the school counselor could help, I dont even know how to bring that up. I've been feeling hungry for air for at least 6 months and my heart hurts everyday. I'm stuck. All I want is to be able to study and degree at my university exam but I can't even stay still without starting to fidget sharply or hit myself repeatedly
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Self-Harm Recovery / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 September 1st, 2024
...See more the images on my mind and sensations on my body are overwhelming i dont know what to do i dont know talk to who i dont have anyone to
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I cant get enough air
Anxiety Support / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 June 26th, 2024
...See more Even though I appear calm, I don't feel like I can breathe adequately. I feel pressure in my head and it feels like something is sitting on my heart. i feel a bit dizzy. But it's been 4 days without interruption. In the past, it used to take 1-2 days and even took 10 days. I don't understand if the reason is anxiety. Its not too intense im able to handle it. I do not have any other physical diseases, I do not have asthma
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