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neatBeechwood4071
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Relationship Stress / by neatBeechwood4071
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 June 18th, 2022
...See more I somehow got involved with someone unavailable and started an affair. This man has talked me into quitting a job and leaving a marriage. He is so jealous it is driving me crazy. I am a people pleaser so don’t like conflict. I can’t be anywhere without him picking a fight even when it’s his idea we do separate things. He always accuses me of lying. I feel like I can’t go anywhere or do anything because he may be following me or keeping tabs on me. I’ve tried breaking things off with him a couple of times and I can’t seem to get it to stop. He has intimate images he took of me without my consent and I am worried that if I end things poorly he will disseminate those. He’s asked to look through my phone and even texts people from my phone pretending to be me. I feel trapped. My body is constantly under a fight or flight response and I am on edge ALL of the time. I feel like if I say the wrong thing or even sometimes if he perceives or “senses” the wrong thing that it will be another fight. I am no longer sleeping, I am considering self harm, and I am feeling trapped and controlled. I feel isolated from all of my friends because I can’t do anything without him because he will get mad or expect me to text him the entire time that I am there. I need this to stop but I don’t know how or what to do. I can’t talk to anyone about this because I am ashamed and I don’t think they will believe me. He is so charming and everyone thinks he’s this amazing guy but behind closed doors he is like Jekyll and Hyde. I suppose I am writing this all out just so I can let it out and so it’s not just swimming around in my head tormenting me.
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