Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav
Feel better with online therapy Professional, confidential and affordable. Start today
notharinn
1 2,238 M Hopeful Heart 3
PathStep 9 Compassion hearts135 Forum posts21 Forum upvotes24 Current upvotes24 Age GroupTeen Last activeAugust, 2026 Member sinceMarch 20, 2024
Bio
Recent forum posts
notharinn profile picture
trigger warning🤞
Eating Disorder Support / by notharinn
Last post
 August 21st
...See more heyyy guys i just really wanted to vent and i don’t really know what to do with myself rn. i had been struggling with everything restrictions, binge eating and stuff during like 2024-25. one random day it just disappeared. i mean i did feel the urge to occasionally binge eat and stuff but it was somewhat manageable ***??? but even since this school year started i’ve been so insecure of my body. i used to be really chubby when i was in like middle school and i used to get bullied. and recently ive been feeling so ugly and fat. i had been overeating so much for the past few months. and recently since like 1-2 weeks i started purging. i don’t do it daily but i do it when i feel like ive over eaten. i’ve become so obsessed with what i eat. ive been tracking my calories again and watching so many tutorials on weight loss and ***. i don’t why ts is happening but yesterday i puked a lot at night. and ever since last night my heart has been beating really fast, i’m not able to breathe i have ts sick feeling in my stomach and idk if it’s anxiety??? but i told my dad about it cuz i really wasn’t able to breathe and i told him everytg for the first time abt my disordered eating and stuff. he started looking for therapy and recovery options available in our region. but rn im so scared to even heal. i feel like if i do im gonna become fat and loose control. i still wanna be pretty and loose weight im scared of healing and idk what to do abt it. it feels like a life or death situation when its really not that deep ik
notharinn profile picture
i can’t stop binge eating
Eating Disorder Support / by notharinn
Last post
 May 6th, 2024
...See more I grew up as the fat kid and in high school i decided i wanted to loose weight. and i succeeded, i underate and lost ton of weight. suddenly ppl started complimenting me and i felt pretty so i felt this pressure to keep this identity as a skinny person. i dont know when it started but i began binge eating. and as time goes, it keeps getting worse and worse. the intensity of the binges become worse and it becomes more frequent. it used to be once a month, then it became once a week, then it was once a day and now its twice a day! i dont know what to do. the thought of becoming my old fat self again terrifies me, but yet i continue to binge. will this ever stop? will i ever get better? do you guys have any suggestions on how i can recover?
notharinn profile picture
i need help??
Eating Disorder Support / by notharinn
Last post
 April 26th, 2024
...See more hey guys?? i feel so *** rn and im crying as i write this. so i used to suffer from anorexia and i dealt with a lot of health issues due to undereating. i lost my period and my doctor told me to start eating more. but ever since i started my recovery, i’ve been binging so often. it’s been a few months now and recently ive been binging almost everyday. i just had the worst binge of my life. i used to be so scared of ice cream and i hated it, but just today i had a whole pint of ice cream even tho i have fever! i can’t believe this keeps happening to me, how much ever i try to stop it just happens anyways. but this time it scared me, i dont wanna do this anymore. i feel like now that i’ve given myself freedom to eat, im so overwhelmed that im obsessed with food and i cant stop eating. how do you guys deal with binge eating? does it ever get better? 
notharinn profile picture
i think i have an eating disorder?
Eating Disorder Support / by notharinn
Last post
 September 25th, 2024
...See more so ever since high school started i’ve been really conscious about what i eat. i used to like flush food down the toilet, trash most of it away and im still really scared of sugar. at some point i had been undereating so much that i almost fainted when i was talking with my parents. so that’s when i started my recovery.  but recently i lost my period and my doc told me to eat more. so since then ive binged so much. ever since i started my recovery, i’ve been loosing control over food. like i get these urges to eat a lottt of food and i feel so guilty after that. i stuff myself until im like uncomfortably full. before it used to happened like once in two months or something but now its been happening more regularly. does this mean im developing another eating disorder? is binge eating normal during anorexia recovery?? 
notharinn profile picture
my eating disorder story?
Eating Disorder Support / by notharinn
Last post
 April 2nd, 2024
...See more hey guys im 14 rn and i’ve been struggling with my eating for almost a year now. i became pretty chubby after covid and once high school started i started restricting. i wanted to become popular and the more i lost weight, the more friends i got (or atleast thats what it seemed like?) i’ve always been this nerd kid but finally i lost weight and the popular kids actually wanted to be friends with me n liked my personality. but then one day i almost fainted in front of my parents so i decided to stop restricting. i thought i recovered but i recently lost my period for 2-3 months. turns out im still under eating. but now i binge so often. like i let myself have whatever i want now and ever since i started recovery, i’ve been binging as well. before it wasn’t this often, but i’ve just binged 3 days in a row. im scared. i dont wanna do this anymore. 
Search more from @notharinn
Talk to an expert therapist
Seeking support takes a lot of courage, and you should be proud of yourself for...
Talk to Jill Now
Badges & Awards
20 total badges
Hand Shake Linked Quintet Super Active Chief Chat Strong Start Milestone Reconnect First Post Reaching out Helping out Appreciated Voice First Compassion Helpful heart Kindness personified Bundled 7 Day Streak Teammate Forum Friend Strong Bond I
Report an issue
Considering therapy? Talk to a licensed therapist, wherever you are. Get started
Feel better with online therapy Professional, confidential and affordable. Start today