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oliveGrapes00
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Positivity & Gratitude / by oliveGrapes00
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 April 17th
...See more My name *doesn't matter* I don't know what much to write, just that I'm done living like this, make mistakes, promise myself I'll change, make plans, work for sometime, let my guard down, fail again and again, feel down for a while then promise myself to change again and tell myself "at least I haven't completely given up" I know that's true but it still hurts and pains a lot when I do things I know will only ruin my life, not only do I know but I'm seeing it already how it's ruining my life and I still can't resist and avoid them anyway and that makes me feel stuck, powerless and without control And regardless of how I've been trying to change for years and failing miserably, I know somewhere inside of me that I can still change even though right now, I'm a porn addict, I can't study despite exams being less than a week away, I procrastinate important things, might not go out for days unless I really need to, even though I neglect my good friends, even though I think about the past I can't change, even though I've been trying for years that nowadays I even laughed at myself when I promise myself again that I'll change. I'm just done feeling and living this way I just don't know how else to put it and I think it's going to be different this time, although I don't know how yet and since I can't tell any of my loved ones about my struggles, well I guess this will have to do And I'm afraid I'm just gonna make fun of myself and let myself down again just publicly this time, but I'm willing to try and I know I'll fail and fall somedays and I know it's part of the process but I'm willing to give it everything this time even if it takes a thousand days 💪🏾(Nope, I hope it doesn't take that long) So this is it
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