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persistentWalker5484
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I feel like i love someone i look up to but will never meet. And that's hurting me.
General Support / by persistentWalker5484
Last post
 February 8th, 2022
...See more I'm an aspiring voice actor. There's someone in the industry i really look up to. I wrote her a fan letter and she encouraged me to follow this passion. I've been thinking about her a lot lately. Even had a couple dreams about her. Now i feel like...like i love her. Seriously. But she's a fairly big celebrity with thousands of fans and i know i'll never even get the chance to meet her. I know this is ridiculous but that makes me sad. She's important to me but the fact i will never even be in the same room is really affecting me. Even causing a depressive spell.
My sister is living my dream and it's really affecting me. I feel very blue about it.
General Support / by persistentWalker5484
Last post
 March 30th, 2021
...See more I'm 24/m and My dream is to be a voice actor. Always has been, i love animation and have always wanted to be a part of it. I even took theater all through high school and college. I took lessons and everything. I got encouraged by my idol, Megan Hollingshead, to pursue this dream after i sent her a fan letter. My sister,16, however, has never stated any interest in being an actress. She mostly wanted to be in sports. I cant play sports because of physical problems. So she had her thing, and i had my thing. Recently, there was an open audition for a local tv show. I saw the ad and felt like it was fate, so i signed right up. I was really excited and couldn't help but talk about it, it's the most excitement i've felt in awhile. My sister didn't seem happy for me, she got annoyed cause it was all i talked about. But then she asked for the link to it so she could sign up too. I refused but she complained to our dad and he said he wouldn't drive me if i didn't. Long story short, i didn't pass but i was ok with that, there were a ton of people trying out. I didn't get upset until she got called, they had a perfect role for her. She put it on speaker and asked me "Isn't that great, i got picked!" I stormed off and just started crying. I told her that it's not fair. She's living my dream. My dad said i need to support her but i told him no, that she shouldn't have been there and stole it from me. He said i should be proud, but i listed off everything i've done to get my foot in the door and it's unfair she can just waltz in and steal it. He told me life isn't fair. My sister keeps parading around and bragging to everyone and they both say i'm overreacting. I refuse to help her with her lines, i won't encourage her at all. I asked "Don't you already have enough? You have sports, better grades and a beauty pageant trophy. Why do you have to take the 1 thing i want?" She keeps throwing it in my face, asking me to help her with her lines but i won't. I told her she doesn't deserve it. She cried but i didn't care. Now, my sister vs me, she's perfect in every way. Pretty, athletic, successful academically and has sports scholarships. I can't play, i can barely walk across the room or stand for more then 10 minutes without pain, i'm also just not a looker. I have just one thing that makes me special, it's my main reason for getting up. Voice Acting. My one true passion, it's the one thing i dedicated my life too. I can't work normal jobs and my parents are forced to take care of me. I'd love to do it and seeing her get in on her first try with no effort really upsets me. I have to see her every day. But now, i feel just awful, very blue and just worthless. I have no talents. When my parents get sick of dealing with me, i'll have nowhere to go and will probably end up in a group home somewhere or assisted living, watching my sister live my dream out.
I'm 22 and i've never slept with a woman. (Never even kissed one)
General Support / by persistentWalker5484
Last post
 November 24th, 2019
...See more I know it may seem like not such a big deal, but it kinda sucks. I'm really ashamed of it and it kind of tears away at me. Now, i worry that if i do get my shot, i won't..."perform" well, because i never got any practice when i was younger. And now, i hear all those horror stories of guys who are in there 40's and have never gotten laid. I worry i may be falling into the same trap. I don't want to be an incel!
Sometimes, I get anxious before sending a message to a girl. How could i get over this?
General Support / by persistentWalker5484
Last post
 January 22nd, 2019
...See more Ok, so one problem i have is actually sending the message and starting to converse. I don't know why i do, i just can't work up the nerve to do it. Take Christmas. There is this girl i've never made the effort to talk to, but have always wanted to. I figured i had an excuse, so i just sent "Merry Christmas", she said it back, i sent her a "How are you", she replied and i was too anxious to read it and it's been since Christmas. It's probably too late.
I met a great girl in college, but i was too scared to ask her out. Is it too late to fix my mistake?
General Support / by persistentWalker5484
Last post
 November 30th, 2018
...See more Hey, i need help. 3 years ago, i met a girl when i went to college. She was, to be honest, my ideal girlfriend. I mean, we were both very similar. We both had very geeky interests. We were both pretty smart. We were actually incredibly similar in most respects. But the biggest thing for me, she was a very outspoken conservative. I never thought i would run into another conservative in college ( i mean, i've heard plenty of horror stories of how left leaning colleges can be). To be honest, she wasn't the model type. Actually, she was pretty nerdy. But i thought she was pretty damn cute. Anyway, i wanted to ask her out. But i just never could work up the courage to do it. And, before i knew it she transferred to another school. I lost my shot, because i was too scared to push it. Yeah, i know, i can see the comments right now as i'm writing this. "Stupid beta cuck". I know, i probably come off as a major beta right now but i want to change that. She was smart, she was cute, shes one of the few people Ive met who actually really liked my sense of humor, she always wanted to talk to me and even approached me on her own, she seemed interested in me and I just let her get away. Every day for almost a year, she talked to me. But i was just too shy to do anything. Plus, i always felt she might have been "too much" for me. She wasn't too much of a dominant personality, in person at least. Online was a totally different story. She'd get into arguments with liberals all the time, and after awhile would generally insult them. Like "You do realize universal healthcare will completely bankrupt our economy, right? And totally goes against what the founding father's fought for, right? Oh wait, you're retarted. Don't worry, you're still special!". and My god, look what she posted about 9/11 and our generation ( https://imgur.com/a/XUZgIVX [https://imgur.com/a/XUZgIVX].) I was kinda worried i'd be biting off more then i could chew. Anyway, I mean, from what i could tell, she'd never had a boyfriend. Like, ever. Plus, She actually might have been interested in me. I mean, we talked every day. Not just a simple hello, but a full conversation. ABout politics or really anything. I don't remember specifically, but we'd talk to just each other for sometimes up to an hour. Not to mention, She made it a point to talk to me. She approached me, i didn't approach her. Whenever she'd come to campus, she'd always sit at the same table i did. I even conducted an experiment, i sat on the opposite side of the lobby andshe STILL sat by me. She even laughed like crazy at my, rather lame, jokes. Loud, i even got her to snort with laughter. It's been 2 years since we talked. I've considered messaging her, telling her how i felt. Or just saying hi, but i don't want to appear too desperate either. How should i approach this? I mean, she still doesn't have a boyfriend from what i can tell. Is it too late? Would i have had a shot anyway?
Problem with my mother - Looking for a listener
General Support / by persistentWalker5484
Last post
 August 15th, 2017
...See more I need a listener to talk to about my feeligns to my mother.
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