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pinkCoconut1588
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Trying to accept,
Trauma Support / by pinkCoconut1588
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 October 17th, 2021
...See more I think I was 14 when my step dad started treating me differently. My family was always a little off I guess, my mom was an alcoholic and so was he, I was depressed I was lost and turned to drinking too since it was the easiest thing to reach for. I had no where to turn, it went on for about 2 years. I just remember feeling so lost, I remember thinking that I’d be dead by 18 and that’s 3 months from now. I also vividly remember thinking that I was so lucky to have a step dad like him, I remember wishing he was my real dad and I feel so sick and foolish for thinking that. It’s all mess now, or I guess it was from the very beginning but I’m happy it’s over, I keep trying to tell myself in safe now. I’ll never be who I was but maybe that’s okay, maybe somehow someday I can use my pain to empower me. But right now it’s still so heavy to carry, I still feel ashamed.
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