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...See more It will all be ok they say. But will it. No seriously. Will it all be ok. Because if I hate my self this much and I hurt my self this much and if I don’t belong this much. Am I even worth the wait. The wait for it all to be ok. Because all these sleepless nights are starting to drag on and the tears which smother my face and pillow are getting tired But I can’t help it. I can’t help that instead of waiting and persisting I would rather for it all to be over. to finally be calm. At peace. Because why wait when you know deep down it will never be over. u know that. U know that no matter how much changes that feeling that shiver that thought will never fully disappear. And even though u hate it some little part of your self wants it. It invites it in. It likes it. And this puzzle of why u want it hasn’t been completed and u can’t be bothered solving this mystery of why. So u ignore the why. The why am I like this. The why did it start. The why did I keep going. And u turn it into how. The how do u keep it bad. How do u make it worse. Because yes U can scream in ur head over simple things The things people point out as normal normal. And those people will think u are fine about those normal things to. Because they still believe u are normal. But another step is to unleash that scream. Let them hear it. Because only then, just maybe, they will pay a little more attention to how normal u really are.

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