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How do I overcome the obsessive thoughts about it?
Self-Harm Recovery / by politeComputer8612
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 August 2nd, 2025
...See more It happened only a few times so far. In the beginning, I was so ashamed and covering my arms and I shared it back then only to my therapist and a friend figured it out. I was so “dissociated” from my behavior that I didn’t realize back then the depth of my pain. Later on, I felt the urge to share it with my partner and this is when the pain hit. I realize how much I was suffering back then and I tried really hard to commit to my recovery. I explored the reasons behind it and for some period of time, I started to feel less embarrassed about my scars. Now due to prolonged life stressors, it started as an obsessive thought and it happened again. I didn’t feel shame or guilt this time, but I felt very alone in this because I decided that it is too heavy to share it with someone. Even with my closest friends. So I decided to reach out to my therapist in our summer break because I really need to discuss the depth of my pain with someone. I felt terrible to reach out to my therapist in the middle her vacation with a “crisis”. But I don’t share it with anyone else because I feel a burden and that my behavior is too much. Every night I feel somehow obsessed to repeat my behavior but I really try to keep it together. But it’s so hard. I want to discuss it but I am afraid of people feeling responsible for “making me stop”. I know that they will try to be more supportive but I can’t deal with the stereotype that this is an attention seeking behavior. I want to talk again with my therapist but I feel but to reach out again, although she is very open to it. I feel very alone with it… I know that people around me can get it, but I don’t wanna hurt them. In the past, I was in severe crisis with other issues and I felt that this put a lot of weight on my relationships. I don’t want to repeat it. And it’s painful…
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Prescribed Drug addiction
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by politeComputer8612
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 August 10th, 2024
...See more I was aware of having drug addition problems in my family and also I had already alcohol addiction when I was copying. I was telling in my late medical provided that I didn’t want to take benzodiazepines but she thought that I wasn’t an alcoholic and I am overreacting, 4 years later I am still struggling with benzodiazepines addiction and when I should take under specific circumstances I am experiencing intrusive thoughts expecting the time that I could get the next dosage, and this is the point that I should raise it to my doctor to stop the medication. So in times of severe distress I should use benzodiazepines and then I am experiencing severe withdrawal symptoms such as fever, tremors, nightmares, heightened irritability and anxiety. And all of these for no reason , since I warned my previous psychiatrist that I don’t want to take these medication except for urgent situations, she didn’t hear me and now I have severe addiction and it is hard. Harder than alcohol since I had to take this medication when needed.
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Regression in Childhood School Experiences
Trauma Support / by politeComputer8612
Last post
 August 9th, 2024
...See more I have c ptsd & aIrishman. I am about to relocate soon in another country, which means that I have to make closures with friends, family, work etc etc and I am not coming back. Each transition was very stressful and traumatic to me since my parents were always like “you abandon us” showing that with behaviors & actions and not verbally. So this was happening in each transition I was facing. One of the most difficult transitions were back in high school where I felt that I had no friends to share together the difficulties of moving in a new school with higher academic expectations and make the transition structured. So I had to start all over again, from zero to establish the interaction with teachers that didn’t get that I have learning disabilities and I am coming from an abusing home unsupported psychologically. So I didn’t have friends and I couldn’t communicate with anybody about my struggles. My parents were having super high expectations of me to thrive in the new environment and when I was expressing concerns, they were getting abusive for not understanding their difficulties to raise me and how hard workers they were for us (we didn’t have financial issues). So now, although I have strong support system with friends and my family stopped being abusive and made so many transitions in my life, I feel that I am going to be alone with no friends, no supported by my family and the professors having high expectation of me although I have my diagnosis now and I already took the appropriate accommodation and psychological support. i am regressed in my childhood experiences and I am having some intense flashbacks leading me to severe panic attacks.
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Autism diagnosis and past misdiagnosis
Autism Support / by politeComputer8612
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 August 18th, 2024
...See more I recently was diagnosed with high functioning autism with many autistic traits. The last few years I was misdiagnosed with a mood disorder and also I have comorbidity with other disorders right now, which make the clinical picture super clear now. People around me don’t accept my autism diagnosis since in professional settings I seem too sociable, which is not the case since when I am home I feel drained because I push myself too hard. Also, they can’t believe that a person that “appears” social can be autistic and except for that they are telling me that it is not possible to have many different diagnosis at once, and they don’t get my challenging journey. So I feel alone with the realization of autism.
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