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powerfulPlum3916
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PCOS diagnosis
Women's Issues / by powerfulPlum3916
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 July 8th, 2025
...See more Hello all, I’m not sure if anyone can help in anyway but maybe I’m in need of a good rant. I was diagnosed with PCOS 2 weeks ago and, well it’s destroying my life. I’m unable to have normal periods, unable to loose weight, possibly unable to get pregnant, basically unable to be a women. i used to be skinny after loosing 50 lbs and gained it all back + 25lbs more. And it sucks. I hate the way I look, the way I talk, the way I look in the mirror and can’t recognize who I am anymore. I hate the reflection but it’s my reality. I’ve tried so many workouts, diets and that only caused me to gain wait because of the pcos.. my gyno told me it’s impossible. Others say it isn’t but I’ve already tried everything and it seems like it is. I’m lost and it’s consuming all my happiness. My doctor tried prescribing me a glp-1 but insurance will not cover it because pcos is not a “medical necessity” even having metabolic syndrome, insulin resistance, pre diabetic . Gosh I hate insurance. Anyway, I’m running out of options and getting sucked into a dark hole that I can’t get out of. I catch myself staring thinking I’ll never be good enough or confident again. And even while talking to my therapist about it and she’s trying to make me feel better I just think I’m better off, not here anymore. It’s not just about “looks” it’s affecting my mental health. I grieve the girl I used to be, skinny. Beautiful, confident. I was able to dress the way I wanted to. And I still feel like her except, I’ll never look like her again.
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Idk anymore
Relationship Stress / by powerfulPlum3916
Last post
 January 2nd, 2024
...See more Ik he’s loosing feelings. I’m doing everything I can and he’s admitted that me loving on him is “too much”. I have every reason to leave but no part of me can let go and I’ve completely lost myself because of him. He’s like an addiction I can’t live without but he’s not giving me the love anymore. Yet I can’t let go because I don’t want someone else to have him. How can someone be so heartless to the ONE person that loves them despite their every flaw and love them in every way possible? To have to force my love for him inside just so it doesn’t go unappreciated or me getting in trouble for it is mentally draining.
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Idek anymore
Depression Support / by powerfulPlum3916
Last post
 January 2nd, 2024
...See more It’s barely the second day of the new year and I already want to not be on earth anymore.. love that for me
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Getting past triggers?
General Support / by powerfulPlum3916
Last post
 December 20th, 2023
...See more Hey everyone, this is random ik but I’m trying to get passed a trigger. So, almost a year ago my boyfriend had a bad “habit” and I found out through an app when I clicked on it. Since then I could not download or use that app because i get ptsd from that even and the trauma it led to. I want to use that app for the content and stuff but I can’t get myself to use it without being reminded of everything. The app is called YouTube btw. If someone could help and not judge that would be very much appreciated thank you:)
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Why do I revolve my whole life around him.
Relationship Stress / by powerfulPlum3916
Last post
 November 9th, 2023
...See more He’s hurt me so many times. He’s seen what happened when I found out what he’d been doing behind my back the entire almost 3 years. Yet he continued to hurt me. He claims he’s changing but he’s choosing when he can and cannot hurt me. I revolve my life around him. I really do and I hate it. Every time I want to live my own life without the trauma and hurt he’s caused me -wanting to feel normal again- I get into the phase of not being able to see life without him. I know he wouldn’t be phased if we had broken up and he’s tried to break up with me. But I keep dragging him back into my life. And I keep having dark days full of triggers and reminders of what he’s done. I’ve given my life to him, lost friends, lost interest in literally everything in life. I miss who I used to be before I met him. The girl who flourished on her own and not attached to someone who has hurt them. I miss her so so much. She could live her days depending on herself, she had hobbies, interest in even living, she lived somewhat of a “normal” life. And now, it will never be the same. He took her away from me. He took her happiness to fill up his, then left her traumatized. I thought I could trust you…
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Random but..
7 Cups Online Therapy / by powerfulPlum3916
Last post
 November 1st, 2023
...See more This is so random ik, but does anyone know how I could see all the reply’s I’ve posted onto peoples thread? I notice I don’t get a notification for every single response (or even a response to a thread I started)
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Recommendations?
Reading & Writing / by powerfulPlum3916
Last post
 November 2nd, 2023
...See more Anyone know a good horror book? One that keeps you wanting to read or too deep into the book that you forget your reading and you picture everything in your head like it’s a movie lol also I have adhd so I really need one that will keep me entertained-as much as possible at least ,:)
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Fertility..
Parenting & Pregnancy / by powerfulPlum3916
Last post
 April 29th, 2024
...See more Hi everyone! I am in desperate need of help (or advice I should say). So, I have history of irregular periods. Would be on/off example: I get period for one month straight and it’s REALLY heavy (basically spend most of time in bathroom) then I wouldn’t get it for another 5 months even up to a year and again, would last long and extremely heavy or regular. Then maybe the next month or two I will finally get a normal 1-week period. My last period was in February of this year, 2023 and lasted one week. I’ve gotten it in January also, for one week as well. Haven’t gotten it since Mid October of this year (with use of birth control, not “normally”). My concern is my fertility. Because I’m not menstruating like I should be, would this mean I wouldn’t be able to have kids? I mean, isn’t it where you release eggs once a month then right after that period ends, it’s a higher chance of getting pregnant? I’ve reached out to my gyno in which I was then prescribed nuvaring so I can produce a period once a month like I should be (I’ve also heard the “blood” in that period that is caused isn’t actually menstrual blood but just regular body produced blood). I’m still concerned that it won’t help out with becoming fertile. I don’t quite understand how it exactly helps with that. (Gyno said when I plan on getting pregnant to stop using ring). I’ve asked gyno and doctor how exactly that will help but still cannot get a clear understanding. (I do not have pcos, I’ve gotten cleared for that). Sorry if tmi, but boyfriend claims he might’ve finished in me a few times and is worried that I haven’t gotten pregnant since we really do eventually want kids. For reference I am 22. - ~ Thank you for those that do take the time to reply and help out! Please don’t judge as I just don’t have much knowledge about this topic which is why I’m reaching out-please be respectful.
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