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purpleCoconut2989
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Need to tell someone
Trauma Support / by purpleCoconut2989
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 April 30th, 2021
...See more I've only told one person this story before and I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I don't even really know if I was or not myself! About 15 years ago I was out on the town with some friends when we were all split up, we just lost each other. Any way I started talking to these 2 boys that I only met that night, as they were talking to one of my male friends. I had asked them if they had seen him as I'd lost everyone. They had told me he had gone back to their house party and that I should go with them to find him. I was young and very drunk to even think anything of it, so I went. I remember entering their house, a girl came up to me and handed me a drink. Within what seems like it was a few minutes, I felt extremely tired. One of the boys took me to his bed and told me to sleep. I remember I was fully clothed. Then that was it, I was sleeping, I can't remember anything else from that night. I woke the next morning naked with a different boy lying next to me. My privates were sore and I remember having a really bad head, but just put it down to a hangover. The same boy I woke up next to drove me home. I seen my male friend a few days later, he started arguing with me saying that I had slept with both males in that house and I was trying to tell him that I never did and he wouldn't listen. We haven't spoken since. After that I forgot about it and it hit me about 6 years ago. It popped in my head and that's only when I realised I think I was d****** and r**** that night be both boys and possibly the girl. The thing is I can't remember what they looked like and where they lived. I don't know how to deal with it and try to overcome this by myself
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Loss of a parent
Depression Support / by purpleCoconut2989
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 May 31st, 2021
...See more I lost my dad at a very young age, 20+ years ago and I still haven't got over it at all. I can hardly remember him. Just a few memories. This is when my depression started. I didn't just loose my dad, I lost all his side of the family aswel. After he passed, they stopped bothering. I went to school with some cousins and they would tell me they weren't allowed to talk or play with me any more. I hate them so much and I can't seem to forget about it all and just move on with my life. There's so much other stuff that has happened in my life that has just added to my depression aswel. I'm angry all the time, I just want to cry most of the time aswel. I'm in a long term relationship with a child, I'm so scared of my partner leaving me and my child growing up to hate me. I've tried antidepressants and they just don't work for me, I get really nauseous and my appetite goes. I don't know what to do any more
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