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scarletWatermelon4179
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Depression Support / by scarletWatermelon4179
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 August 26th, 2025
...See more I have everything I have always dreamed of having. A fully paid off home with a farm on 50 acers and Mountain View’s, two beautiful kids and I beat cancer when I only had a 30% chance of surviving. But I live my daily groundhog life just waiting for the day that I die. I actually look forward to the day I don’t wake up or fall over dead. Hopefully not in front of my kids but still. Oh and I have a man child as a husband that I’ve grown to hate even the sight of him. But the kids need their dad so I put on a smile and fake the happy marriage, fake enjoyable intimacy(even that’s faked just to get it over with), fake the happy family outings. My whole existence lately is a failure and fake. I’m going through the motions of each day just waiting for that day to come and disappointed when I wake up every morning. I absolutely hate my life and wish I had never been born.
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