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Hello! I'm Carrie.

I'm 40 from Minnesota born and raised but now living in Utah with my fiancee and our 3 fur babies Phoebe (6) Phoenix (4) and sweet Pea (2). I enjoy reading, writing, playing games on the switch or laptop. Gardening, listening to music 🎵🎶 playing board games with my babe. Sleeping in when we can. Watching movies or TV shows. My favorite TV shows I love Lucy, Bones, Xena, doctor Quinn medicine woman. I'm pretty easy to get along with.

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Trauma Support / by scarsRmaps84
Last post
 July 31st, 2025
...See more This can be deleted if not allowed. I just wanted to share my story. Hi, my name is Carrie. I wanted to share my story with you. It's 1993 when I was 9 yrs old. My parents were out at a party or something. I honestly don’t remember. My adopted brother Shane was watching my brother Nick and myself. We were all watching a movie, a movie I know wasn’t kid appropriate. Couldn’t tell you the name of it. Anyways my brother Nick decided he wanted to play Saga in the other room. So he left Shane and myself to watch the movie. And next god knows why he decided to WRECK my life. As we are watching this very inappropriate movie cause it got dirty he said to me ‘let's do what they are doing.’ He proceeded to pull down my pajamas and his pants as well and forced himself inside me. I was terrified and horrified as to what was happening to my 9 yr old body. I told him NO and tried to get him off of me. He wouldn't budge. At one point during this Nick came around the corner he needed help with something. I hardly registered what he wanted. I just know he saw what was happening. He never once said anything even know as adults. Maybe he doesn't remember. I just know as this was happening I crawled inside myself and stayed there till it was all done. I remember 3 times, one when we were at my aunt and uncle's house for a family gathering and mom wanted us kids to go home so we’d have to go home with Shane. I begged and pleaded to stay I didn’t want to go. Of course I ended up having to go home. 2nd time was we my family and I went up to our cabin that we have and one night as my parents slept on top of a pull out couch. I was sleeping underneath it and of course Shane crawled under there with me and touched me. 3rd time was me and Shane went to pick up his then wife and my cousin from their bus stop. The bus hadn’t shown up yet. So of course he had to have his fun in the car before they showed up, The molestation went on for a few years. How many I can’t remember. Next when he got married he started making his wife do things to me even if she didn’t want to. I once woke up to them fingering me while I was on my period. How horrifying that was and disgusting. His wife really didn’t have a choice. I remember the last time because it was a threesome. He picked me up and brought me to his room where I had to hear his wife giving him a BJ they put a pillow over my head because I was going to throw up at the sounds I was hearing. He also made me finger his wife while kissing her ***. After that time they stopped all together. So that’s my story or what I can remember of it. Thanks for reading if you made it this far.
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Not sure what to do 😔
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by scarsRmaps84
Last post
 July 17th, 2025
...See more Hi. What do I do if I'm unhappy in my relationship sexually? Been with my fiancee for 14 years and as of lately she's been saying she feels disgusting and doesn't want to which I can understand cause I'm in the same boat yet I still find her attractive and want her matter what. She hasn't done anything yet work out wise to work on herself which I've been trying to get her to do things and she just doesn't want to. I don't know what to do. I feel *** for even wanting to ask her for s*x because she isn't feeling herself. And I'm always the one to make the first move. Sigh 😔😔
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