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selfconfidentTurtle1062
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Why do I make myself cry?
Relationship Stress / by selfconfidentTurtle1062
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 March 31st, 2022
...See more Hey to everyone here, I’m new to this app and forum so forgive me if this is the wrong place for my message. My ex and I broke up almost two months ago and after we initially broke up, I cried my heart out. But then I was okay and I never cried again. Last night something reminded me of all the good memories that we had together so I wanted to feel sad (I’m not sure why I wanted to do this to myself, still working on this) so I looked my ex up and I saw recent videos of him talking. And him talking was one of my favourite things about him. I then felt sad but had to remind myself that it was not a good relationship. There were red flags that I should’ve seen. I know he doesn’t deserve my tears of crying for him and he hasn’t. He still occupies my thoughts though. I emotionally tried to make myself cry by thinking of our old good memories and listening to sad music. Why did I want to make myself cry? Why would I do that to myself? Any insight would be helpful! Also when I did cry, it lasted for about 1 minute and then I was done crying and I felt emotionless again with no tears. I’m not used to expressing my feelings or telling people anything so this is new to me. Oh I should also note, a couple days ago, I was having really bad anxiety where everything felt off and I really just wanted to go home, be away from people and listen to music. Any tips to feeling better would also be appreciated! I do write things down and record how I’m feeling but last night just didn’t seem to help.
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